FS: Nearly everything I own

[SARGE]

over the past few weeks, it has become increasingly evident to me that i do not belong in NZ due to the job situation, family situation etc. My father is very sick and the family farm is laying dormant at a huge loss every season that it is not tended.

therefore, i am liquidating everything i do not need in order to return to the Land of the Big PX.

I am keeping my Computer, my toolboxes and my FJ.. everything else must go.

i need to raise around NZ$10,000 to get myself and Shelby back to the US.

I have a 1993 Mitsi RVR Sport in VGC, Automatic, CD, MP3 player hookup, driven very little since i have owned it - $7995

Fender Squire Tele with Fender Frontman Amp - $500




lots more ..please ask if you need something .. if i have it, i will set a price ( spare helmets, Electric Chainsaw, 2 Huffy Pushbikes.. (one MTB and one freestyle kids bike)


this is serious..not a pisstake


i am also past the point of having any pride left at all.. donations accepted. this is your chance to help rid NZ of a loudmouthed Yank

[enigma51]

Sorry to see you go Sarge
I hope everthings work out for you

And dont be a stranger I think the US of A has internet

[Sniper]

i am also past the point of having any pride left at all.. donations accepted. this is your chance to help rid NZ of a loudmouthed Yank

You got pride, you just know when to be a real man and not a macho, gun weilding manic.

I got a couple of things I'll run a TM auction. I'll see what else I can do for you mate.

S

[SARGE]

just so you know .. i have made the decision. I am not interested in discussing this or having anyone try and change my mind

I have dealt with culture shock for nearly 6 years and i do not fit in here .

game over space cadet

[oldrider]

this is your chance to help rid NZ of a loudmouthed Yank

Hey did it never occur to you that maybe that's what we like about you!

You are what you are and you will always be one of us.

Just stay as you are! You will always be welcome here.

All the best for the future, whatever you decide to do. :yes: Cheers John.

[SARGE]

Hey did it never occur to you that maybe that's what we like about you!

You are what you are and you will always be one of us.

Just stay as you are! You will always be welcome here.

All the best for the future, whatever you decide to do. :yes: Cheers John.

doesnt matter and never has mattered what anyone has thought about me john. It matters what i think about myself and right now that isnt much. I have hurt those closest to me and its better that i get out of thier lives and let them move on.

I love my wife dearly, but i am making her miserable. I love Shelby dearly and he is not happy in NZ and wants to go be with his mom. for whatever reason, i cannot live without him so therefore i will go with him to where he feels safe and happy. I am torn between my wife and my son but at the end of the day, blood is thicker than water

i will always value the friendships i have made on KB ( and i will try not to be a stranger)



THERE IS A MAN WHO DONT FIT IN
A BREED THAT CANT SIT STILL
HE BREAKS THE HEART O' KITH AND KIN
AND ROAMS THE WORLD AT WILL

[Mully]

Mate, sounds like you're serious. Wont try to change your mind (like you'd listen to me anyway) but will say Good Luck.

Post a list of what you have to sell, and anyone can ask you prices for anything they are keen on.

Oh, and your location too.

All the best,
Marcus

[MSTRS]

That's rather a shame, Sarge. Lots of us have experienced the rock and a hard place scenario. Only time will tell if your decision was the right one, long term. I hope all works out for you and yours.
Would like to help out $wise but got our own pressing shortage too with hXc going off on student exchange

[kneescraper]

Good shit, bout time you made a move to better ya life. Im sure you can jump on a PC once over in crazy nutta land and tell us how your getting on...this place will not be the same with out ya blah blah blah.

Enjoy ya self mate, no point staying around if ya not happy.

All the best mate!

[ZeroIndex]

Well Mr. Sarge, don't think I've ever met you, but I will wish you good luck with all your sales etc. Hope everything works out organising your trip, and getting back to the USA...

[Indiana_Jones]

Post up a rough list of what u have to offer, Sarge.

Hope it works out for you mate :)

-Indy

[Sniper]

You will be sorely missed mate....

[Karma]

I have dealt with culture shock for nearly 6 years and i do not fit in here .

Believe me mate, you're not the only one, you'll find the auckland departures lounge just as full as the arrivals.

Good luck with the sale eh.

[tri boy]

Safe travels Sarge. Best wishes for you and your son.
You may be leaving our shore, but on line your just a key stroke away.:bye:

[Storm]

Sorry to hear that Sarge, best of luck getting back home smartly. Be sure to keep us up to date. We'll be thinking of you, and you can always nip back here for an annual riding trip;)
PS There's no shame in asking for a hand, in whatever shape or form

[Patrick]

Sad to hear but fairy nuff...

Was good to meet, even tho you may not remember, but my girl still has the stickers you gave her at Colemans when we popped in before her operation to kick some tyres.

Now to pick ya bones... any kids biking gear F/S????? 8 Yr old girl and 14 year old (but built like adult, I suppose....)

[judecatmad]

I have dealt with culture shock for nearly 6 years and i do not fit in here

I can totally relate to that one! Had a hard enough time adjusting to life in Auckland, then the Navy ripped me away from everything I knew and loved and dumped me in Wellington (ah, the joys of being a Navy wife!). Still having trouble adjusting to this place. Been toying with the idea of going home myself now that there's a wee one on the way....but hubby's not keen on the idea (being a Kiwi and all) and once you're in NZ it's a hard road home $$-wise.

Best of luck. I hope everything works out for you and that you find some peace and happiness.

(((big hugs)))

[scumdog]

Good luck big guy. (would love to live/work in the US myself - and you have the choice!)

Keep in contact eh?

[Grahameeboy]

You need to do what you need to do Sarge.

Let us all know when your flight is and maybe we can arrange a kb send off for ya.......well at the very least we need to do a Kit inspection Sarge!!

Guess you will be around a while until then

[Patrick]

You need to do what you need to do Sarge.

Let us all know when your flight is and maybe we can arrange a kb send off for ya.......well at the very least we need to do a Kit inspection Sarge!!

Guess you will be around a while until then

have some Contacts at Customs too... they can don the extra long rubber gloves for those special searches....

[Swoop]

have some Contacts at Customs too... they can don the extra long rubber gloves for those special searches....
I was wondering how the FJ was getting transported back to the USA...

[Grahameeboy]

have some Contacts at Customs too... they can don the extra long rubber gloves for those special searches....

Normal interogation proceedure for Sarge I imagine........:yes:, I douby he will flinch.....

[Grahameeboy]

I was wondering how the FJ was getting transported back to the USA...

It's amazing what KY jelly can do eh?..........but suggest he drains the fuel first!!

[Biff]

You think posting on KB that you've made a decision to go home to where you heart is as being a cowardly act? A sign of defeat? Having a negative impact on your pride?

Get a grip man - making decisions such as this shows balls, commitmement and loyalty.

Be strong dude.

Deep down you know what's right.

Positive vibes coming your way.

[Waylander]

Where's the farm at Hoss?

Might come looking for a job at some point.

[Macktheknife]

Sarge, understand your dilemma, and sympathise with your situation, give us a list of anything else you need to sell mate.
You will be sorely missed.

Mack

[kro]

At the risk of sounding like a bastard, why did you emigrate to NZ in the 1st place?. I think you're making a hasty decision here.

[Colapop]

No he's not. We can all help by buying whatever he's got. And donating a few bucks too!

[MyGSXF]

You need to do what you know is best for you, & your family SARGE.. :yes: & don't give a shit what anyone else thinks!!! :oi-grr:

Wishing you all the best for the future!! :Punk:

Jen :rockon:

[Babelfish]

Good man. Work the plan and bust a move. Keep yer powder dry mate.

[Joni]

I wish you well mate :spudwave:

Thanks for everything :hug:
My thoughts go with you...:yes:

[crashe]

Dallas - Mate I wish you and Shelby all the very best.......
You must do what is in your heart.


Should you find 'that' item that you have been looking for, for me, when you are going throu your stuff when you are clearing out/selling up/packing.... can you let me know..... cheers. $:yes:

[Karma]

At the risk of sounding like a bastard, why did you emigrate to NZ in the 1st place?. I think you're making a hasty decision here.

I can't speak for Dallas here, but in my case we never saw the 'real' new zealand until we moved here. Spent a total of 8 weeks here on holiday and somehow never saw the reality, because you can't whilst on holiday.

[Joni]

somehow never saw the reality, because you can't whilst on holiday.That is very true! :yes:

[u4ea]

oh Sarge..All the best:bye: :bye: :bye: Im sure youre dad will have a big grin when he sees the boys are back aye....

[SARGE]

At the risk of sounding like a bastard, why did you emigrate to NZ in the 1st place?. I think you're making a hasty decision here.

i came here because i found the love of my life. now i have destroyed all that due to the way i have become over the past few years. I am a hard man to understand at the best of times. I suffer from PTSD and chronic clinical depression and now i have to sit back and watch my family disintegrate.

someone PM'd me earlier and mentioned that my posts reeked of depression. they are completely right. I have sat here at home for the past week and sobbed like a child, almost nonstop. this afternoon, Shelby asked if he could go spend the night with a mate and i said not on a school nite. when all was said and done, the final text was " as of this moment, you are not my dad anymore"


then the guy from GE Money called about being 3 months in the hole on my car payment .. needless to say he got both barrels + gst. and my poor wife had to hear all of it. I looked at her and saw the disgust in her eyes towards me.

im sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone.

and i deserve every second of it .



oh Sarge..All the best:bye: :bye: :bye: Im sure youre dad will have a big grin when he sees the boys are back aye....

my dad has got advanced Vascular Dementia.. he wont even remember me

[MyGSXF]

iim sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone

I don't know you SARGE, I have never met you.. but I get a very strong sense that I can speak for many on here when I say.. you are not alone.. you have the support of many of us!! :yes:

..for what it's worth..

Jen :hug:

[sels1]

Jeez Sarge, sorry to hear your news. But do what ya gotta do and good luck.

Remember the old saying - "this too shall pass"

[Paul in NZ]

im sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone.

and i deserve every second of it .

Dude - depression - it's not your fault, you can get help ya know... You have had a rough trip, don't crash at the end... Look in the phone book - there will be someone that can help - a helpline anything... Call the sallies if ya have to but do it...

[chanceyy]

Hi Sarge we too have never met .. I feel for your situation .. its tough when you feel like your backed into a corner ..


The KB community does care, & we certainly hope you will stay on this site no matter where you end up ..

please post the items you have for sale on here or links to trade me so that can support you in your endevours


also with Shelby, he is trying to make that transition from being a child/son to being a man there will be many rocky roads but we certainly wish you both well

[Swoop]

Sarge, I'm really sorry to hear about what's happend/happening. Lots of crap from many different directions.
I just wish that I knew of a way to help.

You are a damn decent guy. Up front and honest. Something that is rare these days.


I would have said the same thing about it being a school night.
I am not the best to speak to, regarding relationships, though.

[kneescraper]

After reading your last post I feel shell shocked. When I first joined KB you came across as a big strong minded person...I am amazed at how things have changed in such a short time.

Do you think its best to move when your mind is at its current state...could you not stay and work things out with your wife, would the relationship be stronger for it. Im not trying to say you shouldnt leave..but I think things should be worked out before one leaves.

I dont know you but I feel I must say something...where are you situated.

[SARGE]

After reading your last post I feel shell shocked. When I first joined KB you came across as a big strong minded person...I am amazed at how things have changed in such a short time.

Do you think its best to move when your mind is at its current state...could you not stay and work things out with your wife, would the relationship be stronger for it. Im not trying to say you shouldnt leave..but I think things should be worked out before one leaves.

I dont know you but I feel I must say something...where are you situated.

im in Auckland right now ..


i thought i was a strong minded person also. im a big gruff bastard..you dont live through the shit i have and not be strong. i have let my past dictate my present and future.


Shelby is due to go back to the States to live with his mom mid-july. i will tear me apart to put him on that plane. but its for the best

a 14 year old boy has shown me the view from my knees

[kneescraper]

I could ask my father if he has a postion at his business..its radio communications. Thats if you arnt 100% sure your moving, im not sure if hes got a position but I want to help.

[daaatomic]

hi sarge, i'm sure i'm in the same position as many on this site, i don't know you, i haven't meet you, but from what others have said, you sound like a stand up guy.

i'm sorry to hear of your situation and wish that there was something i could do to help.

all i can offer is this, you are more than welcome to a coffee at my work, or a whiskey at my house anytime.

[Steam]

You know, this is one of those "goodbye KB" threads.


See ya Sarge! You and I are almost opposite ends of the (western) political spectrum, but your contribution to KB will be missed. Catch ya later mate and stay well.

[swbarnett]

..im tired. im scared. im alone. and i deserve every second of it .

Sarge, I don't know you and you don't know me but I feel for you.

We all deserve the best that life has to offer. We don't always get what we deserve.

Wherever you arrive next seek professional help. Your GP would be a good place to start. You have a disease that has a cure, or at least a way of managing it.

PS: Found this site that may be of use http://www.depression.com

[SARGE]

You know, this is one of those "goodbye KB" threads.


See ya Sarge! You and I are almost opposite ends of the (western) political spectrum, but your contribution to KB will be missed. Catch ya later mate and stay well.

this is not goodbye KB .. this is goodbye NZ

the US has internet too


welcome to my breakdown..stay tuned

[kneescraper]

Did you read my post?

[Deviant Esq]

Sorry to hear Sarge. You know you'll always be welcome on KB.

I won't go over what others have already said, but you have my respect. Good luck for the future, I hope it's an improvement. I'm sorry that NZ didn't work out for you.

[Chickadee]

Sad to hear you're leaving - wish you all the best for the US return.

You have to do what's best for you and your family. I hope we get a chance to give you a good send off before you depart the NZ shores.

Lots of love and hugs to you and your family
Chickadee (aka MrsMcJim + Christine)

[deanohit]

I am a hard man to understand at the best of times. I suffer from PTSD and chronic clinical depression and now i have to sit back and watch my family disintegrate.

I feel for ya mate.I havnt met you,but I too have suffered from depression for a long time,so I understand some(not all) of what your going through.I havnt been a k'ber for long and havnt met anyone in person yet,but I have found that this is a close community and that if you ask for help on here,you will receive it,so dont be ashamed for asking.It takes guts to reach out to others.Sitting back and not doing anything is the easy (cowards) way out. Sorry to hear you are going,but do what you feel is right.:bye: Dont be a stranger round here mate.

[SARGE]

just like to thank my new mate ipod1098 (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/member.php?u=11743) for my first red rep in 2 years for this thread


maybe i should just harden the fuck up huh?


climb inside my head mate .. you wont come out the same


ps .. i started a blog (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/blogs/viewblog.php?userid=3387).. come join the fuckin fun.. nothing like a nice public meltdown to entertain the troops

[Chickadee]

Hey Sarge,

I've not met you, but I'd like to before you go!

I'm sure the only way is up from here mate, learn to leave the past where it should be - however horrific some of the memories may be. People are capable of all sorts of things when in times of turmoil (war/disaster etc) so don't give yourself a hard time.

Your son is a teenager, and don't take what he said to heart, I can say I said a few things I regretted later on from my teen years - you hurt the ones near to you when you are in pain emotionally. Just be the Dad and man you want to be and expect good things to happen for you, you deserve love, happiness, a loving family (whatever form it comes in) and to feel like you fit in. Big hug matey, chin up, get counselling or whatever help you feel you need - the KB community are here for you (the DH's with comments of no use the site should be ignored for the morons they are!)

Love Chickadee:hug:

[MSTRS]

Don't know whether you're a bible man or not, Sarge, but that book is full of references to "And so it came to pass..." - Nowhere does it say "It came to stay..."
Keep talking, it helps

[SARGE]

Don't know whether you're a bible man or not, Sarge, but that book is full of references to "And so it came to pass..." - Nowhere does it say "It came to stay..."
Keep talking, it helps

im a devout atheist MSTRS.. seen too much hate and death to believe in a higher power that stands for love and forgiveness and is gonna take us to happy-land when we croak. im not against those who have religion, its just not for me

[007XX]

just like to thank my new mate ipod1098 (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/member.php?u=11743) for my first red rep in 2 years for this thread


maybe i should just harden the fuck up huh?


climb inside my head mate .. you wont come out the same


ps .. i started a blog (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/blogs/viewblog.php?userid=3387).. come join the fuckin fun.. nothing like a nice public meltdown to entertain the troops

Sarge....Hardening the Fuck up is NOT what is required!
even though this is something I often repeat to myself to keep my head above water.

To refer back to a thread that Vifferman started a couple of weeks back on his personal experience with depression, it seems to me a lot of us here at KB know intimately the Dark Side of our minds, and have been there for various reasons.

I don't know you and the last time you invited me to the inside of your head, I said that I always enjoyed " scary rollercoasters"...cos I've been there myself!

So for whatever this is worth to you: please PM me sometime and come have a single malt whiskey and a cigar!

[imdying]

Those that feel that is an injustice may pick from this list, the post that they wish to rep against. (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/search.php?searchid=2411396)

[SARGE]

ok.. im in pain today. my head fels like its been used as the ball in an Ozzie Rules game


i want to apologize for using this public space to melt down over the past few days. Its not like me to open up to many people in the first place and to do it on a public forum is wrong.

the support i have been shown however is making me able to chug through another day and i appreciate it.

my wife and i had a talk yesterday and she told me that she does still love me but my condition right now scares and worries her.


me too

for all of you lovely people who offered to take Spooky off my hands.. thanks.. seeing the fruits of my labor so sought after feels good . it started off as a container import and i have spent more than what i paid for her originally in mods and upgrades over the past 4 years.

she's not for sale .. at any price. period. She goes where i go one way or another.,

besides .. there are only a handfull of people here who i think could handle her

[Patrick]

Jesus Ipod... you don't know shit from clay. Hopefully, it was a poor attempt at humour to lighten a moment?

John KIRWAN's ad where he is talking about this stuff even says "harden up" is not what one needs to hear.

Stay strong Dallas, talk to people coz it can be a hard road, if you let it be one.

At least you are recognising the problem coz more often than not, you are usually the last one to realise there is even a problem. Its a good start.

Keep talking to the boy and to your wife, ensure they are aware of what is going on with your lines of thought at the moment and that the guy they both know and love is still there, and normal service can be resumed again with a little time and patience...

[Sniper]

Those that feel that is an injustice may pick from this list, the post that they wish to rep against. (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/search.php?searchid=2411396)

Doesnt bring anything up.

You got my hopes up.....

[SARGE]

Jesus Ipod... you don't know shit from clay. Hopefully, it was a poor attempt at humour to lighten a moment?

John KIRWAN's ad where he is talking about this stuff even says "harden up" is not what one needs to hear.

Stay strong Dallas, talk to people coz it can be a hard road, if you let it be one.

At least you are recognising the problem coz more often than not, you are usually the last one to realise there is even a problem. Its a good start.

Keep talking to the boy and to your wife, ensure they are aware of what is going on with your lines of thought at the moment and that the guy they both know and love is still there, and normal service can be resumed again with a little time and patience...


im personally not worried about Ipod.. as my profile says.. karma is a motherfucker. i just wanted to name and shame to let him know that it aint all hiding behind a keyboard thinking no one can touch you.. its rep and i dont care one way or another.. cant ride it eat it shag it or smoke it ..

the circle of life motherfucker .. Hakuna matata

[Patrick]

. i just wanted to name and shame to let him know that it aint all hiding behind a keyboard thinking no one can touch you..

twas more of a mesage for Ipod in the first part. Figured you wouldn't be bothered by it... but name and shame away... Ipod... sheesh...

[MSTRS]

im a devout atheist MSTRS.. seen too much hate and death to believe in a higher power that stands for love and forgiveness and is gonna take us to happy-land when we croak. im not against those who have religion, its just not for me

Not religious myself either. Just thought the reference to scripture had some merit.
As for pouring your guts out on here...that takes real courage. You're a bigger man than most of us nancyboys.

[SARGE]

You're a bigger man than most of us nancyboys.

thats just from years of Taco Bell and All-You-Can Eat buffet's

funny story.. i was DJ'ing in a bar years ago and decided to go check out this brand new Chinese buffet ( a rarity in Dayton, Ohio.) with a bunch of my mates on the security staff..7 of us

i was the smallest one in the group at 245 pounds and 6'1

4 hours later,, the poor owner came out almost in tears ..

"you leave now!! you no come hea no mo!!"

[MSTRS]

*tears of laughter*
:gob:

[007XX]

thats just from years of Taco Bell and All-You-Can Eat buffet's

funny story.. i was DJ'ing in a bar years ago and decided to go check out this brand new Chinese buffet ( a rarity in Dayton, Ohio.) with a bunch of my mates on the security staff..7 of us

i was the smallest one in the group at 245 pounds and 6'1

4 hours later,, the poor owner came out almost in tears ..

"you leave now!! you no come hea no mo!!"

:laugh: Sounds familiar...10 years ago, had a similar experience, but was heavily pregnant! he he...

[SARGE]

*tears of laughter*
:gob:



mate .. we musta ate close to US$1000 worth of crab legs

$6.95.. all you can eat


sucker

[imdying]

Yeah sure... those 'legs' are made of 'crab' :rofl:

[Crasherfromwayback]

mate .. we musta ate close to US$1000 worth of crab legs

$6.95.. all you can eat


sucker

Nice work!


I looked at her and saw the disgust in her eyes towards me.

im sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone.

and i deserve every second of it .






I'd say that 'look' was probably more fear and worry mate.
And you're not bleating...you sharing. Sharing is good.

No one deserves to feel that way either.

Hope things get brighter for you soon.

[The Lone Rider]

Got any combat gear for sale? A set of MARPATs or an ACOG or two? :)

And I'd be interested in any music gear you have.

Wish you luck, I'm from the land of red and white and blue but I ain't leaving just yet.

[ManDownUnder]

Got any combat gear for sale? A set of MARPATs or an ACOG or two? :)

Try this (http://www.trademe.co.nz/Browse/Listing.aspx?id=105887706) - under my name but selling on behalf of the man. SARGE will back me up on this as needed

[The Lone Rider]

Try this (http://www.trademe.co.nz/Browse/Listing.aspx?id=105887706) - under my name but selling on behalf of the man. SARGE will back me up on this as needed

Cool, not quite what I'm after as I don't intend on stabbing anyone (yet..) but I know someone named "Sarge" in CHCH who might want it although he probably has one.

[SARGE]

Got any combat gear for sale? A set of MARPATs or an ACOG or two? :)

And I'd be interested in any music gear you have.

Wish you luck, I'm from the land of red and white and blue but I ain't leaving just yet.

http://www.trademe.co.nz/Browse/Listing.aspx?id=106150152

[Karma]

im personally not worried about Ipod.. as my profile says.. karma is a motherfucker.

What'd I do to you? :shit:

[Sniper]

Try this (http://www.trademe.co.nz/Browse/Listing.aspx?id=105887706) - under my name but selling on behalf of the man. SARGE will back me up on this as needed

A must have, but Im not allowed it till I get back from Aus. Hopefully it hasnt sold, although at that price its a fucken steal...

[Hitcher]

Good luck with your move back to the US of A, Sarge. I understand your reasons and a bit of the crap that you've obviously had to put up with here in NZ. As you say about the specific gravities of blood and water, you need to do the best for your family -- and for yourself. I really hope everything works out for you. Anyway, I hear that they've now got the Interweb in America, so you should still be able to logon and keep us all honest. Some insider information on the upcoming presidential election would be appreciated.

Semper Fi, Sarge.

[Scorpygirl]

Sarge...no-one knows exactly what you are going through, but we are all there for you and your family. :love:

I just wish you all the best in what ever decisions you will make now and in the future. Just try to keep strong even though it may seem hopeless at the mo.

As I often say - Kia Kaha..be strong. I mean it with all my heart.

:hug: :hug:

[SARGE]

im getting into this BLOG (http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/blogs/viewblog.php?userid=3387&entry=204) thing.. Catharsis

[Sanx]

Hi Sarge,

You don't know me - I've met you a couple of times in Colemans and before in Red Baron, but I don't think we even exchanged names.

I don't often trawl through the Rant and Rave section of KB, so I missed the first thread about your son. I live almost directly between Lynfield College and Margaret Griffin Park so I felt annoyed I hadn't seen the thread in time. The last I could have done was gone out to have a looksee.

Until I saw your 'leaving' thread, I was going to send you a message with a suggestion that your son might have been interested in; an athletics club out at Margaret Griffin park. I guess that's not a valid option now.

However, the whole point to this rambling post is this: depression's a bitch. I've been there and I've got the scars, both physical and mental, to remind me. You've made the first move - admitting there is something up - and talking about it and bringing it into the open is about the best thing you can do. It's a hard road getting through it; some people can overcome it and many others find a way to cope with it and carry on life as normal. There's no magic bullet or secret elixir - it's different in every case.

So ... wherever your life takes you, wherever you end up, I wish you the strength to find a way through the dark. Like night and day, light always follows dark, and only you can decide when dawn comes.

[nudemetalz]

Sorry to see you go, Sarge, on behalf os us Arrogant W@nker Wellies !!!
You will be missed.

[kinger]

Sarge, PM me the price of the lece chainsaw and postage, very interested.
I was widowed at 29, and as a result feel like you about religion, but just want to remind you that things can get better.
Best wishes mate.