Bloody Mad Woman (BMW)
3rd February 2009, 15:59
Has anyone else been made redundant this year??
There are some days one should not get out of bed - today was one of those days. This post is just a statement of events and does not seek sympathy nor is it a plea for monetary help lol.
I have been made redundant today.
The limp-wristed ball-less wonder of a boss could not tell me to my face last week so the HR Manager had to tell me - on the phone. This was only because I told her WINZ had cut my benefit so I may as well return to work full time. Of course that got them panicking - cos there is no work. So they had to get their arses into gear and put it in writing and set up a meeting - which we duly had today at 10.30am. I decided I would remain silent - yes it is possible lol. They were asking me for options - hello you don't have to be fkn Einstein to figure out there is no work therefore they have no option but to make me redundant. I have been trying to return to work and do more hours - but they haven't let me because there really is no work. I mean they can't help that my life goes from one fkn disaster to the next without any of my input lol. C'est la vie.
Then I went to Benefit Advocacy - they are trying to sort out Winz's total incompetence. However they were only sorting out one part (not all like I had thought), namely the disability allowance. Winz have stopped paying TAS - temporary assistance support - Why?? cos they simply did not action my form that I sent in - Why - they can't fkn tell me that one, I asked - cos the bloody Case Mgr is a useless piece of shit. I have yet to see the same person twice. At Ahu's funeral this guy mentioned the Benefit Advocacy people, so I thought it was safer for everybody that I use them. One thing I cannot tolerate is incompetence - and the last person I saw at Winz was totally incompetent and rude. E.g. after searching for 20 mins on the computer I asked her where was my hard file "In the file Room", then I strongly suggest you get it and you will understand what I am talking about. 10 mins later she finally did, but didn't address one of the problems - I asked her why that was not actioned - "You will have to ask your Case Manager" and who is my case manager??? She was sitting behind me. Well I suggest you find out for me - I was told that she would get my case manager to ring me - I am still waiting this happened mid January. I can't be bothered relating it all suffice to say it was an extreme effort for me to contain the verbal abuse I really wanted to hurl at them.
I went back to Benefit Advocacy and advised them I had been made redundant etc - could only get an appointment at WINZ for Friday 13 Feb (great, knowing how dodgy my luck is - it may not bode well). Apparently I could get a food grant then. Hello, my account is OD and has been since my last pay, correction - I had $4 left after rent, electricity and phone went out - it is now $7 od. So I asked where the Food Bank was. I'm not too proud to use them. Apparently it is downstairs - so off I go - doors are locked. Two guys are waiting as well - eventually someone comes to the door and says We are Closed (it is 2.15pm). I asked what time is the Food Bank open. "Mondays and Fridays - but it is not open this Friday because of Waitangi Day". I'm a stunned mullet at this stage. I vaguely heard him say is it urgent. Well I found I did have some pride left and didn't want the whole world to hear so I said It's Ok, don't worry. I walked away and I gotta admit tears rolled down my face. I just don't have the energy to fight anymore - I'm exhausted and this is just for the basics in life.
Last nite I tried making pancakes - jesus wept - they were awful - hell if I need some rubber on my tyres I know what to do. They made a good frisbee - as I tossed one in the bush behind my place. It's not like I'm going to starve - or fade away - I wish lol. I need to lose weight - steriods willing.
I am in a programme where there is a saying FEAR - Face Everything and Recover, then there is Fuck Everything and Run and as a very good friend said to me last nite FUCK EVERYTHING AND RIDE - seems to me to be the best solution yet. I'll try and save for the petrol lol - I'm on "reserve".
I will get over this, but hell I wish the universe would give me a break real soon (a statement of fact not self pity). Either that or I break. I just seem to be in permanantly stunned mullet mode at present. I have been given some solutions of where to next and I am taking some action towards this. Firstly I have to go to the Dr again (tomorrow) and he can put me on the Invalids Benefit - get counselling from EAP - got an appointment tomorrow for that. One day at a time. I still have my sense of humour - just lol. :calm:
There are some days one should not get out of bed - today was one of those days. This post is just a statement of events and does not seek sympathy nor is it a plea for monetary help lol.
I have been made redundant today.
The limp-wristed ball-less wonder of a boss could not tell me to my face last week so the HR Manager had to tell me - on the phone. This was only because I told her WINZ had cut my benefit so I may as well return to work full time. Of course that got them panicking - cos there is no work. So they had to get their arses into gear and put it in writing and set up a meeting - which we duly had today at 10.30am. I decided I would remain silent - yes it is possible lol. They were asking me for options - hello you don't have to be fkn Einstein to figure out there is no work therefore they have no option but to make me redundant. I have been trying to return to work and do more hours - but they haven't let me because there really is no work. I mean they can't help that my life goes from one fkn disaster to the next without any of my input lol. C'est la vie.
Then I went to Benefit Advocacy - they are trying to sort out Winz's total incompetence. However they were only sorting out one part (not all like I had thought), namely the disability allowance. Winz have stopped paying TAS - temporary assistance support - Why?? cos they simply did not action my form that I sent in - Why - they can't fkn tell me that one, I asked - cos the bloody Case Mgr is a useless piece of shit. I have yet to see the same person twice. At Ahu's funeral this guy mentioned the Benefit Advocacy people, so I thought it was safer for everybody that I use them. One thing I cannot tolerate is incompetence - and the last person I saw at Winz was totally incompetent and rude. E.g. after searching for 20 mins on the computer I asked her where was my hard file "In the file Room", then I strongly suggest you get it and you will understand what I am talking about. 10 mins later she finally did, but didn't address one of the problems - I asked her why that was not actioned - "You will have to ask your Case Manager" and who is my case manager??? She was sitting behind me. Well I suggest you find out for me - I was told that she would get my case manager to ring me - I am still waiting this happened mid January. I can't be bothered relating it all suffice to say it was an extreme effort for me to contain the verbal abuse I really wanted to hurl at them.
I went back to Benefit Advocacy and advised them I had been made redundant etc - could only get an appointment at WINZ for Friday 13 Feb (great, knowing how dodgy my luck is - it may not bode well). Apparently I could get a food grant then. Hello, my account is OD and has been since my last pay, correction - I had $4 left after rent, electricity and phone went out - it is now $7 od. So I asked where the Food Bank was. I'm not too proud to use them. Apparently it is downstairs - so off I go - doors are locked. Two guys are waiting as well - eventually someone comes to the door and says We are Closed (it is 2.15pm). I asked what time is the Food Bank open. "Mondays and Fridays - but it is not open this Friday because of Waitangi Day". I'm a stunned mullet at this stage. I vaguely heard him say is it urgent. Well I found I did have some pride left and didn't want the whole world to hear so I said It's Ok, don't worry. I walked away and I gotta admit tears rolled down my face. I just don't have the energy to fight anymore - I'm exhausted and this is just for the basics in life.
Last nite I tried making pancakes - jesus wept - they were awful - hell if I need some rubber on my tyres I know what to do. They made a good frisbee - as I tossed one in the bush behind my place. It's not like I'm going to starve - or fade away - I wish lol. I need to lose weight - steriods willing.
I am in a programme where there is a saying FEAR - Face Everything and Recover, then there is Fuck Everything and Run and as a very good friend said to me last nite FUCK EVERYTHING AND RIDE - seems to me to be the best solution yet. I'll try and save for the petrol lol - I'm on "reserve".
I will get over this, but hell I wish the universe would give me a break real soon (a statement of fact not self pity). Either that or I break. I just seem to be in permanantly stunned mullet mode at present. I have been given some solutions of where to next and I am taking some action towards this. Firstly I have to go to the Dr again (tomorrow) and he can put me on the Invalids Benefit - get counselling from EAP - got an appointment tomorrow for that. One day at a time. I still have my sense of humour - just lol. :calm: