Young death - Donations

[Genestho]

Hi guys,I don't know what else to say apart from what I've already said a million times before.It's still very hard, probably harder than when it first happened, cause I found the first couple of weeks I was in complete shock, I can hardly remember much from those days..Except for all the horrible things, like the police showing up at my door, seeing Alex in the mortuary, and his funeral. I still have very dark thoughts, I still feel like I'm waiting for something to happen..I'm not sure what, I guess a part of me still doesn't believe this is real. On the 25th of this month it will be/would have been Alex's 22nd birthday. Another trip to the grave for me on what should have been a happy day. I can't believe he didn't make it to 22, I still feel so angry this happened, and I feel sorry for myself and bad for Alex too, that he's missing out on so much, and I am too. Connor's already gone half his life without his dad.
I just wanna say thank you all, not just for the donations but for all your support. When I posted up here that day (although I don't remember doing it) I know I wasn't expecting such a huge reply. It really means so much to me that you all gave me support and still continue to do so, for a stranger. I know Alex would be really grateful.

I for one could not ignore you. If you did not last the week I'd have been personally devastated!! Alex would be proud of you.

Strangers....are just friends you haven't met yet

[GOONR]

Strangers....are just friends you haven't met yet

I was going to say the same thing.. My best mate was a stranger once. Now I can call him anytime I want / need to.

[boman]

I for one could not ignore you. If you did not last the week I'd have been personally devastated!! Alex would be proud of you.

Strangers....are just friends you haven't met yet

Word for word what she said. Even though you may not feel it some days, you seem to sound better. The firsts after an event like this are very hard, but soon they are no longer firsts, and they get a little easier to deal with. Take it from people who know mate. Not a day goes by that I, personally, wonder if, what I am going through, is real. It is a normal reaction. And I am sure Nasty, T.G.W, and others in the same boat feel the same.

Keep your chin up girl, we are here and watching.

[caseye]

Anika,I don't often (read, not ever) shed tears, but tonight reading what you wrote to those of us here, on your thread, well girl it was close!
T.G.W, Mrs Busa,Nasty, Mom and all you others take a bow, here is our friend Anika come to talk with us.
She's still hurting but by God shes doing it.
I'm so happy to see those words Anika.Your words, from you as you feel the urge to write them.
Keep true to yourself, keep it simple and take your time.
We! ain't going anywhere unless of course it's to do something for our friend Anika.
Night Anika, c u again soon.

[Mrs Busa Pete]

Morning Anika you know Alex would be so empressed with you. You are doing so well and each day you are getting past one little more loop in the day as we all are. You know those dark days are to be exspected for a while but they will become fewer over time. And in the mean time we are all here for you.

Take Care love and give yourself and Connor a from me

Wendy

[DreamRunner]

Hey Anika, hope you're doing alright today
Believe us all when we say you're doing amazingly well. It's not been that long since it happened and it may still get harder before it gets better. But I do promise that it will get better. The wounds will heal. The scars will linger forever but eventually they will stop hurting quite so much. I'm not sure what kind of things you're doing at the moment (ie. studying, working, or just hanging out at home, etc), but seeing friends and family could be a good thing (I don't know if you're doing this already). Just keeping pushing through. Keep holding on. Don't give up. You're doing so well.

DreamRunner

[Mrs Busa Pete]

Hi Anika hope you have had a good weekend and manage to get a good nights sleep.

We are off to Wellington tomorrow for the protest ride so will sign in again probley Wednesday so take care and i will be thinking of you.



Take Care Love

Wendy

[caseye]

It's Welly for me too Anika, hope the week brings something nice for a change.
Take care and please give little Connor that traditional big hug from us rough tough bikies.

[Conquiztador]

Morning Anika

I think most of us from KB went on the ACC Protest ride to Wellington. That made me think, is ACC helping you?

Hope the warmer weather makes life a fraction better, and as time goes rays of sunshine start to come through the dark clouds.

Take Care girl.

[wysper]

Anika

If you will let me

I will light a candle for you
you will see it at night
you will see it through your tears
you will see it when you smile

In Connors eyes a flame will shine
In your dark a flame will shine
In your heart a flame will shine

My candle is small but it is bright
My candle is small but it is for you
My candle is small but it is not alone

Neither are you


Greg

[alexm]

Thank you Greg And well ACC is in the "process" of helping me. I sent off all the stuff about 3 weeks ago..still waiting. And they keep wanting more stuff from me..like 2 days ago got a phone call asking for Alex's previous work places. Have no idea why the hell they need these..I wish they would just get a move on. He had an accident, I'm his partner, as it says on his death certificate, Connor's his child..what's the hold up? Guess they got a lot of cases but still. And the coroners report isn't gonna be ready till next year..cause SCU only just started the report a couple of weeks ago. I hate waiting for things.

[caseye]

Hi ya Anika, Wellington was a blast, Nicks Myth was totally wasted, but our gubbermint is still not listening, anyway, sounds like situation normal for ACC, the SCU, well, they got a lot on and everyone of their jobs is important as I'm sure you would know.
Don't sweat the details, long as something is happening and you are kept in the loop, it's all good.
Hey though, don't hesitate to talk to anyone of us about stirring up the ACC for you or with you aye, woulkd be a pleasure to hit em where it hurts, so to speak.
Hope the weekend brings surprises and friends, catch you again soon, wonderful to see that we didn't all leave you while the protest was on.
Take care and give that litlte fella that big ol hug from us here too.

[Oakie]

A.like 2 days ago got a phone call asking for Alex's previous work places. Have no idea why the hell they need these..I wish they would just get a move on.

It's probably something to do with verifying his earnings over the last 12 months which is what they have to do as part of assessing Earnings Related Compensation. I'm not entirely sure how it will apply to this case though as I've never had anything to do with one like this before (I deal with ACC quite a bit through my work in HR/Payroll).

The wheels can turn slowly at ACC, but they do turn. (A bit like my bike come to think of it.)

[alexm]

True I didn't think of that. But I'm supposed to be entitled to 80% of whatever he was earning at his current job, not all his earnings so yea. I actually even sent them in a piece of paper Alex's boss gave me showing his earnings since he started there. Uh I don't even know why I care. If I won the lotto right now it wouldn't even make me happy, in fact it would piss me off. Sucks that I have the most money I've ever had now that I'm not paying rent (will be in 2 weeks though) and Alex isn't here to enjoy it with me. Tomorrow its only 3 days till Alex would have been 22..that time last year I woke up to Alex next to me, wished him happy birthday in the middle of the night, took him out for dinner, and was only just pregnant with Connor. I hate this

[Nasty]

True I didn't think of that. But I'm supposed to be entitled to 80% of whatever he was earning at his current job, not all his earnings so yea. I actually even sent them in a piece of paper Alex's boss gave me showing his earnings since he started there. Uh I don't even know why I care. If I won the lotto right now it wouldn't even make me happy, in fact it would piss me off. Sucks that I have the most money I've ever had now that I'm not paying rent (will be in 2 weeks though) and Alex isn't here to enjoy it with me. Tomorrow its only 3 days till Alex would have been 22..that time last year I woke up to Alex next to me, wished him happy birthday in the middle of the night, took him out for dinner, and was only just pregnant with Connor. I hate this

I don't think it works like that .. from what i have seen of the system is that they pay 80% of the previous years earnings ... sorry about that ... I am unsure of the exact breakdown ...

I know its tough and the firsts are all upon you .. take each one at a time ... it was the only way I got through them ... you are doing well ... and I know you miss him so extremely much at the moment...