I'm giving it all up...
"Take life one day at a time. Make mistakes. Learn from them. Come out a better person. Never regret the things that have gotten you where you are today."
"I came into this game for the action, the excitement... go anywhere, travel light,... get in, get out,... wherever there's trouble, a man alone... Now they got the whole country sectioned off; you can't make a move without a form."
Paved roads are just another example of wasted tax payer dollars.
there is no use in asking... it's a hopeless cause... it's not going to get any better.. I'm sorry... to all of you... I can't help me... no one can help me...
"Take life one day at a time. Make mistakes. Learn from them. Come out a better person. Never regret the things that have gotten you where you are today."
"I came into this game for the action, the excitement... go anywhere, travel light,... get in, get out,... wherever there's trouble, a man alone... Now they got the whole country sectioned off; you can't make a move without a form."
Paved roads are just another example of wasted tax payer dollars.
Hi AJ
I think I understand what is going on in your head. The important thing is to recognise that you aren't thinking well. Your thoughts are misleading you and all you can see is the dark.
From inside yourself everything outside looks hopeless, pointless. I know. I've been there.
You must not try to cope with this by yourself. You must go to your doctor, even though you don't want to, and talk to him or her. You need to trust one or two friends/family with how you feel.
There are many good people here who have been through what you are experiencing. We can help. PM me.
Maybe AJ doesn't really want things to get better. It's bullshit to say things can't get better, and they can certainly get a LOT worse.
Flame away, but this is just errant nonsense. Why post "... it's a hopeless cause... it's not going to get any better.. I'm sorry... to all of you... I can't help me... no one can help me..." ?
There are only a couple of options:
1. This is a cry for help: if it is, then why say, "No one can help me" and refuse help?
2. This is a pity party: "Poor me, everything's so bad, it's all shit, please feel sorry for me!"
This is what I call "victim mentality" - a crap attitude where the person feels (subconsciously or otherwise) that they're some sort of a victim, and looks for sympathy and attention from other people. The trouble is, even if they get it, it doesn't fucking help! Whether someone is genuinely a victim of wrongs, hurts, shit luck and all the rest or not, wallowing in self-pity achieves nothing except bolstering that whole crap attitude.
You can't eat, save, or bank sympathy, and it doesn't effect any changes, just reinforces the whole 'victim mentality' thing.
FFS, AJ: wake up! There are a lot of people that care for you and are prepared to help you out. There's no fucking reason why things can't get better and can't be fixed!
Unless of course you don't really want them to be better, and enjoy wallowing in the crap your life currently seems to be to you. Yeah, it only seems that way, because you have refused to take some very basic steps that will help, like medication - even if it's only non-prescription stuff available from the supermarket. Shit, I've got bottles of the stuff at home - you can have it for free!
And like letting people help you - that's a far better option than fishing for sympathy, Girl!
Wake up to yourself; you can't trust your feelings and thoughts - you may think they're your own, but they're totally bogus!! They're just a result of your neurochemistry being out of whack.
Look - I've been where you are: not EggsZachary the same circumstances, but they're irrelevant anyway. You could have a bazillion dollars and everything you want, and you'd still feel exactly the same way!
It's high time Girl, to stop feeling sorry for yourself and do something about fixing things up - talk to someone: a friend, or a professional, and pay attention to what they say! Don't ignore it!
And you really should think about taking something to fix your head, so you're in a headspace where you can see things clearly, not through pity-coloured glasses.
... and that's what I think.
Or summat.
Or maybe not...
Dunno really....![]()
Me, I would suggest seeing a Counsellor or at least ring Life Line ASAP. Ether way DON'T PUT OFF SEEKING PROFESSIONAL HELP. Ya life is worth more than that. I know, I've been there. Seeking professional help "saved" my life. Your life is your most important asset.
As long as you are alive ya have a chance at improving ya life. Ya can't fix ya problems when ya died so that is not a solution. In fact it will only make things worse for those ya leave behind. I've been to a funeral for a 21yr old friend who killed himself this year. He left behind many awesome people who all miss him badly. Too bad he is not here now ta see it
GET HELP NOW.
New Zealand......
The Best Place in the World to live if ya Broke
"Whole life balance, Daniel-San" ("Karate Kid")
Kia kaha, kia toa, kia manawanui ( Be strong, be brave, be steadfast and sure)![]()
DON'T RIDE LIKE YA STOLE IT, RIDE TO SURVIVE.
Those are bloody good points! One of the things that kept me from killing myself is that I always remembered it would REALLY hurt and fuck up the lives of those people who care for me.
Look - every day is still a struggle for me, of varying degrees. But overall, it's worth it.
It boils down to a simple choice: to put up with crapness, or do something about it. Killing oneself doesn't fall into the "doing something about it" category, unless you live in a vacuum where it doesn't affect those around you. It's one of the ultimate acts of selfishness, where you say "Fuck you! I'll show you, and then you'll be sorry!"
The trouble is, that doesn't do you any good, and does permanent harm to those around you who would rather have you here.
... and that's what I think.
Or summat.
Or maybe not...
Dunno really....![]()
Im depressed, took my bike in to get dynoed Mon, riding a loner Yamaha SRX 250 thats covered in rust and sooooo slow. Still waiting for bike and looks like I may have it tomorrow???
work and home life are both shit at present, just want to ride my bike.......miss it bad.
Agreed. However a person experiencing profound depression cannot see the effect on anyone else. Their sense of "self" is entirely gone. Empty. Black. Indeed as I've earlier posted, a person in this condition can really genuinely believe that death won't matter to anyone else. In fact it would be a relief for others.
The other point is that not living feels like the only way to get away from the pain. It isn't - but people need help to get out of the hole.
That's terrible! But not the end of your world: you have getting your bike back to look forward to.
Plus it's not all bad - I had a shitter of a Volty as a loaner once, and I discovered it was fantastic for jumping over speed bumps with, courtesy of its light weight and bouncy suspension!
I'm sure if you dig a little, you'll find something to have fun with on the SRX. I bet it's dynamite for donuts, and not as easy to drop as El Bandito!
... and that's what I think.
Or summat.
Or maybe not...
Dunno really....![]()
I don't agree; it's not entirely gone, just forgotten in the distraction of feeling really, really bad. You just have to make a determination when you are feeling semi-OK that you'll remember that there are people who love you and you're not going to hurt them no matter how bad it gets.
... and that's what I think.
Or summat.
Or maybe not...
Dunno really....![]()
cheers viffer, i will attempt to distract myself with the 250.
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