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You're only 18 years old. Relax. On the grand scale, none of this shit matters. So you might get fired, big deal, there's plenty of work out there. Uni ain't gonna get you through life and if that's what your father thinks tell him to go fuck himself. If you are indeed a bit fucked up, its probably his fault in the first place.Originally Posted by Curious_AJ
Oh yeah, don't watch Shortland St. Half of NZ's mental illnesses are caused by this show.
Dr Finn.
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If you take enough of them they do.
Oops, sorry.
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Fuck Finn, not often I agree with you, but you hit the nail on the head there. All of them valid points, especially the one on Shortland Street.
Aj, if everything is so bad, leave it all behind,go someplace else, get a job doing what ever and do more of the volunteer work you seem to like doing. It may not be much of an improvement, but it will be a change for you and may give you some freedom. Your dad sounds a real hard arse, bet he tells you to stop being lazy when your probably working as hard as you can already. Get away from anything that makes you unhappy.
"I came into this game for the action, the excitement... go anywhere, travel light,... get in, get out,... wherever there's trouble, a man alone... Now they got the whole country sectioned off; you can't make a move without a form."
Paved roads are just another example of wasted tax payer dollars.
Kittyhawk4Doc
Kicked the ex out.
Moved house.
Got a full time job.
Applied to do a bachelor degree with a double major.
Got a haircut.
Do regular exercise.
Listen to music and dance alone.
Changed my diet.
Returned back to therapy.
On medication.
Talk and open up to family.
Be around friends even when Im feeling like shit (like last fri at bar africa)
Tried peoples suggestions on here.
(have I missed anything out)
What more is there left to do?
Now I know Im fighting something. Why? because I've done all these things some once some time and time again, life was going great and now its crashed again, no triggers, nothing has upset me. At least I know now something isn't right..but it will get better.
But Im low. And it happens, and I'll fuckin fight this thing, it wont get the better of me.
AJ once you've tried some of this stuff - life changing for the better - (given up tried and tried again in some cases) get low and depressed, then you will know there's something wrong.
Until then, I have yet to believe you suffer from depression.
My bass is such a slapper.......I cant stop fingering those strings
Wherever I may roam
Good to hear your fighting strong Kittyhawk. With an attitude like yours, you'll beat it someday.
"I came into this game for the action, the excitement... go anywhere, travel light,... get in, get out,... wherever there's trouble, a man alone... Now they got the whole country sectioned off; you can't make a move without a form."
Paved roads are just another example of wasted tax payer dollars.
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U go girl!!!!
You summed up very nicely what i had on the tip of my tongue...
Has left the building
Ahhhhhhh....now just stick at it Miss Kittythrush
BTW...last comment is bang on too
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Good attitude, Sheryl!
I think that's the most important thing: not accepting how things are, nor giving in to it, but deciding that "this is shit, and I want better for myself".
Sometimes it's really insidious, and creeps up on you, and you don't realise how bad things are until something or someone shows you. For me, it was my wife saying "I think you're depressed; tell the doctor when you visit him that I said that". And then, the very first half-tablet of Aropax I had made me feel ordinary and just normal. It was such a contrast to how I'd been feeling.
While they did help, I wish I'd never started on antidepressants, at least not till I'd done some major research or checked alternatives. It took literally months to get the side-effects to go away and to return to being 'me' (whoever that is). I'm still not 100% sure they're not still affecting me.
(The flipside of the coin is that they masked the arthritis pain/symptoms, which I now have to deal with).
I feel mostly pretty damned good now, apart from having some nights where I can't get to sleep easily, and wake up tired. I also know I'll have a few days a month where I'm a write-off, but I just accept that, make the best of it, and ride out the shit storm. I also have some alarming moments where my brain malfunctions, like taking the bike apart, dropping some important washers, and putting it back together without them, without once thinking, "Hey - where are those washers?" Or doing REALLY dumb things on the road, like forgetting to look to the right at an intersection.
That is VERY distressing and really freaks me out. Of course, my kids just think this is proof that I'm old and fukt, and my wife just tut-tuts and worries.
The most important things are support, and breaking the cycle, by changing your attitudes, actions, bad habits, and doing whatever it takes to dig/climb your way out of the rut before it becomes a grave.
... and that's what I think.
Or summat.
Or maybe not...
Dunno really....
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Your willing to kill yourself over what may be a simple fucked up serotin receptor? That can be fixed by those nasty drugs GP\'s hand out like lollies? With some experience in this feild, ID SAY YOUR DEPRESSED>
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Tell you what AJ- I am going to bite my tongue once again- but fwiw, I am inclined to agree with Kitthawk, and (disturbingly) I agree with Finn.
I will say this: you are completely out of line. Who are you to say whether other people have been depressed or not? On what basis? Because they got better, and try to share their experiences with others in order to help them?
Okay, there are varying levels of severity in this illness, just as with many other illnesses from person to person, and from day to day with each person that suffers from it.
It is not a competition. If you think it is, then you are more sick than depressed.
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You ever felt like you were dying, a pain, a throb a fast heart ... and then you go to the doctors and even though he/she gave you drugs you already feel better?
It's like me on here, this thread was my coming out so to speak, had told no one about my "condition" but now the world knows I feel more accepted, more understood, normal even (well looking around kb is normal heathly lol).
To let out your feelings is one thing, to play on them is another
We childproofed our homes, but they are still getting in.
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I agree 100%, expressing what you have been through in this thread in order to help people who are going through the same thing, or get advice/help yourself is great...
But as you say its the "playing on them" that is the problem.
Do what it takes, if it does not work immediately keep going... but find a solution, even if its a way to get through each day as best you can...
Respect Kitty!
and as always Respect Viffer!
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I didnt recognise you at first... You look gooood, lovin the new do!!!
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It happens because life becomes a routine again, when things are new they are exciting and an eye opener. You are doing everything right and have the right attitude.
Just be careful not to fall into the trap of "omg it's not right I have to fight it" when it's an positive, disguised as a negative.
You're a great person, and you are who you are because of your past, I wouldn't have you any other way (well maybe a little olderlol)
A good example (maybe), is like how you felt after you had your head shaved, if you had never done it before it would be against your natural grain. Apart from the good cause you did it for did you feel better afterwards?
One thing in your list made me go hmmm, that was open up and talk to family, maybe it worked, maybe it didnt but I've found there are five groups of people;
the "omg your a fruit loop your going to slaughter us all in our sleep ...";
the "HTFU, it never happened to me so it doesn't happen";
the 'I have no idea what your on about but if I agree with you can I sleep with you/have your bike/cat/dog/slinky ... when they lock you up/when you end it';
the 'I like to help people but have no idea what your going through, maybe I can help but I might make it worse';
and the 'you aren't alone, take my hand and I'll lead you through the rough patches but I can't do the tough stuff for you, thats your job, I can just support you".
I personally am very selective about who I tell (apart from blurting it out on here), my family would probably fall into the first or second group, my friends probably the second group and possibly the third group. I've found lots of fours but no fives which at times would truly love. So while waiting for a five we can use our other hand to help guide us, to help us through the tough spots, to wipe our brow ...
We childproofed our homes, but they are still getting in.
I'ma get medieval on your ass!
There is a New Zealand depression forum http://www2.everybody.co.nz/forum/ub...oard=45&page=1
It needs more people to be effective so join if you'd like to. Sharing experiences is good therapy and support for others.
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