Depression...

[CookMySock]

Hey.. Remember theres the IRC chatroom ay.. always someone to goof off with or talk shit with there, or type a long a long story too, if thats what you need right now.

C'mon over, its always nice and warm there. Be sure to "say" if you're not feeling so flash.


best,
DB

[Badger8]

how is everyone going?

i've seen better days.

(damn, now i've got that song stuck in my head! )

Same old shit that comes and goes, it'll pass in time i guess

[LilSel]

im still not sleeping very well, i cant remember the last night of decent sleep that i have had (more than 4 hours)

i am moving out east soon maybe that will help....

Sorry for the teeth grinding baby!!
(I grind my teeth really loudly in my sleep... I dont know doing it)

Yay!! Cant wait till you move in!!

[deanohit]

Not so good, but I'm trying to ignore it and keep distracted.

Same here for the past week, I find myself slipping into old habits as soon as the stress level goes up, but must say meeting up with the guys and talking shit for awhile tonight has boosted my spirits!

[martybabe]

I dont really want to read this thread because it would ,possibly, make me revisit a dark place I once called Home.

I would however like to add my support to fellow sufferers and the friends/family of sufferers. I wish us all a brighter future.

[XP@]

I dont really want to read this thread because it would ,possibly, make me revisit a dark place I once called Home.

I would however like to add my support to fellow sufferers and the friends/family of sufferers. I wish us all a brighter future.

It is not all that bad, this thread has supported me through some tough times.

I've not been about for a while, but recently reality has been slapping me about the face again

[Kittyhawk]

It is not all that bad, this thread has supported me through some tough times.

I've not been about for a while, but recently reality has been slapping me about the face again

Hun you know Im just a pm away...let me know if theres anything I can do to support ya *hugs*

[Unit:Me]

I feeling really upset tonight because I have to put my dog down tomorrow. The wine probably doesnt help I believe its a depressant but Im still in denial about that.
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[buellbabe]

Hiya, well I felt the need to ressurect this thread cos lately I have felt like an utter trainwreck. Nearly had a complete meltdown at work last week. It was only the kind words of support from my dear friend Rashika that stopped me from just walking out of the place.
Feeling very ‘woe is me’ and I hate being so needy, especially when I think about some of the stuff that other people go through. But we are all individual eh? And what may be a molehill for one person is a mountain for the next person.
Things have just gone from bad to worse over the last couple of weeks and I was starting to wonder if I was losing the plot, didn’t seem to have a rational thought in my head. Then Friday arvo when my head was beginning to really pound I thought to myself, “jeez those fumes from the iso are bloody strong, must go get some fresh air”. All of a sudden a little bulb lit up in my very hazy grey matter. I wonder if I am feeling so f**ked up cos of all the Isoprpyl alcohol I have been breathing in over the last week?
To clarify, I am an image retoucher however I am also an old-school high-end scanner operator and last week I was doing quite a lot of scanning. The scanning room is small, enclosed and NOT ventilated, we use iso to clean the drums and the trannies and although I always wear gloves when I am using the stuff I don’t wear a mask ... the fumes are pretty strong and its dawned on me that maybe I had a low dose of chemical poisoning!!!

Sure my worries still exist but after a weekend away from work they somehow don’t seem to be quite as insurmountable. They are still significant issues that need to be dealt with but I feel more confident that I WILL deal with them. Basically, I HAVE to.

Kinda makes me wonder how often depression could be attributed to external environmental factors? No doubt there have been extensive studies done on the subject...

Anyway, also wanted to touch on something else that has been mentioned in this thread earlier and thats the benefits of fresh air and animals. God I don’t know what I would do without my animals. Got home on friday night on an all time low. Put my fave CD on ... VERY LOUD ... poured myself a drink and collapsed into a chair. Shar came and nuzzled me but she doesn’t really like the stereo up that loud so she took herself off to her bed. Dyna came and sat ON my feet and pressed herself against me occasionally looking at me with questioning eyes as if to say “are you ok mum?” If she could have given me a hug she would have. It was impossible not to be touched by her sensitvity. She is the most incredible dog and not for the first time I thought to myself that my dogs really do give my life meaning.

[chanceyy]

Hiya, well I felt the need to ressurect this thread cos lately I have felt like an utter trainwreck. Nearly had a complete meltdown at work last week. It was only the kind words of support from my dear friend Rashika that stopped me from just walking out of the place.
Feeling very ‘woe is me’ and I hate being so needy, especially when I think about some of the stuff that other people go through. But we are all individual eh? And what may be a molehill for one person is a mountain for the next person.
Things have just gone from bad to worse over the last couple of weeks and I was starting to wonder if I was losing the plot, didn’t seem to have a rational thought in my head. Then Friday arvo when my head was beginning to really pound I thought to myself, “jeez those fumes from the iso are bloody strong, must go get some fresh air”. All of a sudden a little bulb lit up in my very hazy grey matter. I wonder if I am feeling so f**ked up cos of all the Isoprpyl alcohol I have been breathing in over the last week?
To clarify, I am an image retoucher however I am also an old-school high-end scanner operator and last week I was doing quite a lot of scanning. The scanning room is small, enclosed and NOT ventilated, we use iso to clean the drums and the trannies and although I always wear gloves when I am using the stuff I don’t wear a mask ... the fumes are pretty strong and its dawned on me that maybe I had a low dose of chemical poisoning!!!

Sure my worries still exist but after a weekend away from work they somehow don’t seem to be quite as insurmountable. They are still significant issues that need to be dealt with but I feel more confident that I WILL deal with them. Basically, I HAVE to.

Kinda makes me wonder how often depression could be attributed to external environmental factors? No doubt there have been extensive studies done on the subject...

Anyway, also wanted to touch on something else that has been mentioned in this thread earlier and thats the benefits of fresh air and animals. God I don’t know what I would do without my animals. Got home on friday night on an all time low. Put my fave CD on ... VERY LOUD ... poured myself a drink and collapsed into a chair. Shar came and nuzzled me but she doesn’t really like the stereo up that loud so she took herself off to her bed. Dyna came and sat ON my feet and pressed herself against me occasionally looking at me with questioning eyes as if to say “are you ok mum?” If she could have given me a hug she would have. It was impossible not to be touched by her sensitvity. She is the most incredible dog and not for the first time I thought to myself that my dogs really do give my life meaning.

BB .. I hear you on the animals, my animals have always been in tune to when i am feeling very low & tend to respond to my mood .. My mare especially picks up if I am feeling down & always just stands next to me nuzzling & blows on me .. No matter what is wrong I find it hard to remain low when i am around them, Animals are completely pure, they do not judge you and give you unconditional love.

hmmmm also I am picking it would be against osh regulations for you to work in such close proximity to chemicals without adequate ventilation or protection .. I would follow up on this one chick

& just remember friends are only a call away ... have added you to my buddy list hon & you can access my phone numbers

[vifferman]

Kinda makes me wonder how often depression could be attributed to external environmental factors?

Maybe not just external, but things like diet too? :spudwhat:

'They' reckon depression is a growing problem in the modern world, particularly western countries. It makes me wonder whether things that didn't previously exist, such as detergents, deodorants, organic chemicals (weedicides, pesticides,etc.) contribute to it. Like there was a thought that things like Parkinsons are caused by aluminium cookware etc., but what about anti-perspirants, that commonly contain aluminium compounds, that we are spraying onto our skin (and inhaling small amounts of)? What about inhalation of exhaust fumes, that are 'safe' now that the greenies have had tetraethyl lead removed, but contain large quantities of xylene and toluene?

I know that my depression may be at least partially genetic, but I was also exposed years ago to high levels of tetrabromoethane and acetone while doing lab work, and worked with weedicides such as 2,4,5-T (with no protection) while working in the forest and on a farm. That can't be too good.

But mostly I blame the Gubmint and bureacrats - they don't get enough stick for fucking things up, so let's blame them.

[buellbabe]

245-T?
WHOAH! One of my childhood friends was exposed to that as a child and she is a complete cot-case. Not only does she suffer from depression but her immune system is rooted because of the chemical poisoning.

And Chancey, cheers chick. Its nice to know people care. Unfortunately I am cursed with not wanting to burden people so thats kinda why things get to the woe-is-me level before I wail and moan! Rashika and AJ are 2 rocks of support. Mind you I have also been there for them on occasion so I guess thats what being a friend is about eh?

[Toaster]

Hiya, well I felt the need to ressurect this thread cos lately I have felt like an utter trainwreck. Nearly had a complete meltdown at work last week. It was only the kind words of support from my dear friend Rashika that stopped me from just walking out of the place.
Feeling very ‘woe is me’ and I hate being so needy, especially when I think about some of the stuff that other people go through. But we are all individual eh? And what may be a molehill for one person is a mountain for the next person.
Things have just gone from bad to worse over the last couple of weeks and I was starting to wonder if I was losing the plot, didn’t seem to have a rational thought in my head.

I completed understand and empathise.

Might come as a surprise to some, but I have just been going through the same thing myself and am currently taking a long break from work to sort out my head and priorities. The last few years rather traumatic events have finally taken their toll as things at work got out of hand and became the final straw that pushed me to breaking point.

Rather than break, I have sought rest and help to get me back. Breaking is not an option and am taking the time to relax.

All the best on your journey.

[buellbabe]

Thanks mate... back at ya.

Currently working on my CV, gotta get out of here. Its a bummer cos I love the people I work with but the general morale is so low its sub-terranean.

[chanceyy]

245-T?

And Chancey, cheers chick. Its nice to know people care. Unfortunately I am cursed with not wanting to burden people so thats kinda why things get to the woe-is-me level before I wail and moan! Rashika and AJ are 2 rocks of support. Mind you I have also been there for them on occasion so I guess thats what being a friend is about eh?

absolutely its a two way street (or supose to be) it can be hard taking on others burdens but not having the outlet for yourself .. I know that one .. hence my horses are my stabilizing factor

& to be honest babe once you vent it out to your friends its a release, alot of the time you are so close to a situation you can not see through the cloud that surrounds you ... & others who are outside might be able to assist with clarity

its awesome having "gold" friends huh .. they are the ones who are there for you no matter what