FS: Nearly everything I own

[Joni]

I wish you well mate :spudwave:

Thanks for everything
My thoughts go with you...

[crashe]

Dallas - Mate I wish you and Shelby all the very best.......
You must do what is in your heart.


Should you find 'that' item that you have been looking for, for me, when you are going throu your stuff when you are clearing out/selling up/packing.... can you let me know..... cheers. $

[Karma]

At the risk of sounding like a bastard, why did you emigrate to NZ in the 1st place?. I think you're making a hasty decision here.

I can't speak for Dallas here, but in my case we never saw the 'real' new zealand until we moved here. Spent a total of 8 weeks here on holiday and somehow never saw the reality, because you can't whilst on holiday.

[Joni]

somehow never saw the reality, because you can't whilst on holiday.

That is very true!

[u4ea]

oh Sarge..All the best Im sure youre dad will have a big grin when he sees the boys are back aye....

[SARGE]

At the risk of sounding like a bastard, why did you emigrate to NZ in the 1st place?. I think you're making a hasty decision here.

i came here because i found the love of my life. now i have destroyed all that due to the way i have become over the past few years. I am a hard man to understand at the best of times. I suffer from PTSD and chronic clinical depression and now i have to sit back and watch my family disintegrate.

someone PM'd me earlier and mentioned that my posts reeked of depression. they are completely right. I have sat here at home for the past week and sobbed like a child, almost nonstop. this afternoon, Shelby asked if he could go spend the night with a mate and i said not on a school nite. when all was said and done, the final text was " as of this moment, you are not my dad anymore"


then the guy from GE Money called about being 3 months in the hole on my car payment .. needless to say he got both barrels + gst. and my poor wife had to hear all of it. I looked at her and saw the disgust in her eyes towards me.

im sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone.

and i deserve every second of it .

oh Sarge..All the best Im sure youre dad will have a big grin when he sees the boys are back aye....

my dad has got advanced Vascular Dementia.. he wont even remember me

[MyGSXF:Me]

iim sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone

I don't know you SARGE, I have never met you.. but I get a very strong sense that I can speak for many on here when I say.. you are not alone.. you have the support of many of us!!

..for what it's worth..

Jen

[sels1]

Jeez Sarge, sorry to hear your news. But do what ya gotta do and good luck.

Remember the old saying - "this too shall pass"

[Paul in NZ]

im sorry for bleating on like this gang ..im tired. im scared. im alone.

and i deserve every second of it .

Dude - depression - it's not your fault, you can get help ya know... You have had a rough trip, don't crash at the end... Look in the phone book - there will be someone that can help - a helpline anything... Call the sallies if ya have to but do it...

[chanceyy]

Hi Sarge we too have never met .. I feel for your situation .. its tough when you feel like your backed into a corner ..


The KB community does care, & we certainly hope you will stay on this site no matter where you end up ..

please post the items you have for sale on here or links to trade me so that can support you in your endevours


also with Shelby, he is trying to make that transition from being a child/son to being a man there will be many rocky roads but we certainly wish you both well

[Swoop]

Sarge, I'm really sorry to hear about what's happend/happening. Lots of crap from many different directions.
I just wish that I knew of a way to help.

You are a damn decent guy. Up front and honest. Something that is rare these days.


I would have said the same thing about it being a school night.
I am not the best to speak to, regarding relationships, though.

[kneescraper]

After reading your last post I feel shell shocked. When I first joined KB you came across as a big strong minded person...I am amazed at how things have changed in such a short time.

Do you think its best to move when your mind is at its current state...could you not stay and work things out with your wife, would the relationship be stronger for it. Im not trying to say you shouldnt leave..but I think things should be worked out before one leaves.

I dont know you but I feel I must say something...where are you situated.

[SARGE]

After reading your last post I feel shell shocked. When I first joined KB you came across as a big strong minded person...I am amazed at how things have changed in such a short time.

Do you think its best to move when your mind is at its current state...could you not stay and work things out with your wife, would the relationship be stronger for it. Im not trying to say you shouldnt leave..but I think things should be worked out before one leaves.

I dont know you but I feel I must say something...where are you situated.

im in Auckland right now ..


i thought i was a strong minded person also. im a big gruff bastard..you dont live through the shit i have and not be strong. i have let my past dictate my present and future.


Shelby is due to go back to the States to live with his mom mid-july. i will tear me apart to put him on that plane. but its for the best

a 14 year old boy has shown me the view from my knees

[kneescraper]

I could ask my father if he has a postion at his business..its radio communications. Thats if you arnt 100% sure your moving, im not sure if hes got a position but I want to help.

[daaatomic]

hi sarge, i'm sure i'm in the same position as many on this site, i don't know you, i haven't meet you, but from what others have said, you sound like a stand up guy.

i'm sorry to hear of your situation and wish that there was something i could do to help.

all i can offer is this, you are more than welcome to a coffee at my work, or a whiskey at my house anytime.