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[Steam]

You know, this is one of those "goodbye KB" threads.


See ya Sarge! You and I are almost opposite ends of the (western) political spectrum, but your contribution to KB will be missed. Catch ya later mate and stay well.

[swbarnett]

..im tired. im scared. im alone. and i deserve every second of it .

Sarge, I don't know you and you don't know me but I feel for you.

We all deserve the best that life has to offer. We don't always get what we deserve.

Wherever you arrive next seek professional help. Your GP would be a good place to start. You have a disease that has a cure, or at least a way of managing it.

PS: Found this site that may be of use http://www.depression.com

[SARGE]

You know, this is one of those "goodbye KB" threads.


See ya Sarge! You and I are almost opposite ends of the (western) political spectrum, but your contribution to KB will be missed. Catch ya later mate and stay well.

this is not goodbye KB .. this is goodbye NZ

the US has internet too


welcome to my breakdown..stay tuned

[kneescraper]

Did you read my post?

[Deviant Esq]

Sorry to hear Sarge. You know you'll always be welcome on KB.

I won't go over what others have already said, but you have my respect. Good luck for the future, I hope it's an improvement. I'm sorry that NZ didn't work out for you.

[Chickadee]

Sad to hear you're leaving - wish you all the best for the US return.

You have to do what's best for you and your family. I hope we get a chance to give you a good send off before you depart the NZ shores.

Lots of love and hugs to you and your family
Chickadee (aka MrsMcJim + Christine)

[deanohit]

I am a hard man to understand at the best of times. I suffer from PTSD and chronic clinical depression and now i have to sit back and watch my family disintegrate.

I feel for ya mate.I havnt met you,but I too have suffered from depression for a long time,so I understand some(not all) of what your going through.I havnt been a k'ber for long and havnt met anyone in person yet,but I have found that this is a close community and that if you ask for help on here,you will receive it,so dont be ashamed for asking.It takes guts to reach out to others.Sitting back and not doing anything is the easy (cowards) way out. Sorry to hear you are going,but do what you feel is right. Dont be a stranger round here mate.

[SARGE]

just like to thank my new mate ipod1098 for my first red rep in 2 years for this thread


maybe i should just harden the fuck up huh?


climb inside my head mate .. you wont come out the same


ps .. i started a blog.. come join the fuckin fun.. nothing like a nice public meltdown to entertain the troops

[Chickadee]

Hey Sarge,

I've not met you, but I'd like to before you go!

I'm sure the only way is up from here mate, learn to leave the past where it should be - however horrific some of the memories may be. People are capable of all sorts of things when in times of turmoil (war/disaster etc) so don't give yourself a hard time.

Your son is a teenager, and don't take what he said to heart, I can say I said a few things I regretted later on from my teen years - you hurt the ones near to you when you are in pain emotionally. Just be the Dad and man you want to be and expect good things to happen for you, you deserve love, happiness, a loving family (whatever form it comes in) and to feel like you fit in. Big hug matey, chin up, get counselling or whatever help you feel you need - the KB community are here for you (the DH's with comments of no use the site should be ignored for the morons they are!)

Love Chickadee

[MSTRS:Me]

Don't know whether you're a bible man or not, Sarge, but that book is full of references to "And so it came to pass..." - Nowhere does it say "It came to stay..."
Keep talking, it helps

[SARGE]

Don't know whether you're a bible man or not, Sarge, but that book is full of references to "And so it came to pass..." - Nowhere does it say "It came to stay..."
Keep talking, it helps

im a devout atheist MSTRS.. seen too much hate and death to believe in a higher power that stands for love and forgiveness and is gonna take us to happy-land when we croak. im not against those who have religion, its just not for me

[007XX]

just like to thank my new mate ipod1098 for my first red rep in 2 years for this thread


maybe i should just harden the fuck up huh?


climb inside my head mate .. you wont come out the same


ps .. i started a blog.. come join the fuckin fun.. nothing like a nice public meltdown to entertain the troops

Sarge....Hardening the Fuck up is NOT what is required!
even though this is something I often repeat to myself to keep my head above water.

To refer back to a thread that Vifferman started a couple of weeks back on his personal experience with depression, it seems to me a lot of us here at KB know intimately the Dark Side of our minds, and have been there for various reasons.

I don't know you and the last time you invited me to the inside of your head, I said that I always enjoyed " scary rollercoasters"...cos I've been there myself!

So for whatever this is worth to you: please PM me sometime and come have a single malt whiskey and a cigar!

[imdying]

Those that feel that is an injustice may pick from this list, the post that they wish to rep against.

[SARGE]

ok.. im in pain today. my head fels like its been used as the ball in an Ozzie Rules game


i want to apologize for using this public space to melt down over the past few days. Its not like me to open up to many people in the first place and to do it on a public forum is wrong.

the support i have been shown however is making me able to chug through another day and i appreciate it.

my wife and i had a talk yesterday and she told me that she does still love me but my condition right now scares and worries her.


me too

for all of you lovely people who offered to take Spooky off my hands.. thanks.. seeing the fruits of my labor so sought after feels good . it started off as a container import and i have spent more than what i paid for her originally in mods and upgrades over the past 4 years.

she's not for sale .. at any price. period. She goes where i go one way or another.,

besides .. there are only a handfull of people here who i think could handle her

[Patrick]

Jesus Ipod... you don't know shit from clay. Hopefully, it was a poor attempt at humour to lighten a moment?

John KIRWAN's ad where he is talking about this stuff even says "harden up" is not what one needs to hear.

Stay strong Dallas, talk to people coz it can be a hard road, if you let it be one.

At least you are recognising the problem coz more often than not, you are usually the last one to realise there is even a problem. Its a good start.

Keep talking to the boy and to your wife, ensure they are aware of what is going on with your lines of thought at the moment and that the guy they both know and love is still there, and normal service can be resumed again with a little time and patience...