Opening up- No one to talk to. I dont expect anyone to read or answer this.

**Macktheknife** · 21st July 2007, 17:16

Chris, my thoughts are with you, be glad that you were able to clear the air with him before he went, so much worse if you had not. LeChayim (To life!).

**007XX** · 21st July 2007, 17:48

Sincere condolences Chris.

I feel my words would be useless, and I haven't met you, but my thoughts are with you.

Take care.

**86GSXR** · 21st July 2007, 17:58

Very sorry to hear this Chris.

**carver** · 21st July 2007, 18:00

Originally Posted by Mr Merde

I'm sitting here in my home by myself. Partner at work and far from my family.

This morning I have had news of the worst kind. The cousin i have been closest to through my life time has just this morning, died.

He was 3 years older than I. When growing up he was the person closest to me that I looked up to. He started me on bike riding. He encouraged me to take up shooting. I lived with him and his family for a year and he helped me with my homework at that time.

He contracted the big C and has been very ill. I visited him in hospital last week and had planned to visit him today.

I couldnt as he passed away at 6:45 this morning.

Seven years ago we had a massive arguement and we havent until last week, spoken to each other. When i visited him in hospital we just forgot about all the shit that had passed between us and chatted as we used to. He told his younger cousin what to do, he was just my cousin. We were just mates again.

Now he has gone. Why did we let all those years go by just ignoring each other, I dont know. maybe we were too much alike. Too proud too stubborn to approach each other.

I'm 50 years old and I'm sitting here wiping the tears away and feeling as useless as hell.

Life is too fucking short to let stupid arguements ruin things.

MIKE, I thank you for looking after your little cousin. I thank you for teaching my that 22/7 is Pi and what it means. I thank you for letting me ride your Francis Barnett 200cc motorbike when I was 13. For showing me how to have fun with a .22 bolt action rifle. For putting up with me.

Most of all thanks for being my cousin.

Mr

(aka Chris Breen)

Dedicated ro my cousin

Michael Moodie ( died July 21, 2007)

thanks dude, for sharing that, it but life back into perspective.
some people i know had their 20 month old baby die this week, just seeing photo's of the kid happy and alive really moved me...but its part of life eh...death

**deanohit** · 21st July 2007, 18:04

Sorry to hear that mate. The only thing I feel I can say to help you is to remember him from when he was younger and full of life insted of sick in a hospital bed. Things like you say below=

I thank you for teaching my that 22/7 is Pi and what it means. I thank you for letting me ride your Francis Barnett 200cc motorbike when I was 13. For showing me how to have fun with a .22 bolt action rifle. For putting up with me.

Will now go have a toast to him in your other thread mate.

**kneescraper** · 21st July 2007, 18:14

RIP

Pride, Ego and Shame can be one of the most distroying human behaviours. I have lost many a friend because of one of these actions. However its easer said than done, not to allow us to be taken over by one or more of these habits.

Im so happy for you, you two have put these things behind you and are at peace. Like you said mate, life is to short...dont allow you thoughts of regret take over you. Be happy and content that you guys were at peace.

With Cancer, as sad as it sounds, death can be very releaving for the patient. My Grandmother died from Cancer, it was the best thing for her because of the way he mind was dieing from all of the stresses of having the disease.

Let peace be with you and your family and friends. Thank you for sharing that with us.

**chanceyy** · 21st July 2007, 18:15

Condolences & huggzz to you Chris .. I agree with Mrs KD ... Life can pass us so quickly .. regardless of time wasted no one can take your memories & you had the chance to just talk as if crap had never happened .. Later once your grief has eased you will be really appreciative of that

go with speed Mike .. RIP

**Winston001** · 21st July 2007, 18:51

You showed a lot of courage sharing your pain. Big ups to you man. It is crushing to lose someone whom you really care about. Allow yourself to feel the sorrow, it is real and a part of understanding life.

We can all learn from your experience. Thanks for sharing.

**YellowDog** · 21st July 2007, 20:12

Sorry to hear your new Chris. I can relate to your situation. You both left each other on a close and positive note. I am happy for you in this respect. Chin up mate!