Well This Is Not FUN.....

**Paul in NZ** · 24th October 2007, 11:42

Frankly this pretty well sucks…..

Hmm.. Where to start, especially since this is bound to be horribly embarrassing when it all turns out to be an ingrown hair or a peanut I swallowed when I was 5…

I’ve been described as being moody… and it’s true, a big ego, a bit of bi polar and type one diabetes (my blood sugars really affect my temperament) is probably not a great mix and frankly I’ve offended people I didn’t mean to but I can’t say I worry too much about it all….. But I’ve been an extra bit touchy lately.. We all have our demons to face in life and currently mine seems to have a name, Testicular Cancer…

Now thats not quite true, the chances are is not even cancer, BUT yes, there is ‘something’ and it isn’t a good something in a place where men really don't want extra things and it’s growing so bring on the embarrassing probes and the machines that go ‘bing’. The doctors are great!

Some people would wait until it’s confirmed 100% either way but for me, open, loud and honest; despite the consequences has always been the best. Frankly I think its a cyst or something.....

How do I feel? It changes like the weather, terrified one moment, happy the next but always always up for the challenge and 100% positive this is a temporary set back and will NOT be the way I go…. Pissed off? No not really, a quick read of any daily paper reveals that far worse things happen daily to great people and I have a wonderful life really, I can’t see this minor hiccup changing that.

The only thing that does piss me off… I had a hot nurse fiddling with me wobbly bits and was very disappointed to find it was not even mildly arousing. Frankly it all looked a lot hotter when I imagined it.

So there ya go – this ride has left the platform and I’ve got the bars gripped firmly. Bring it on, its gunna be a wild one….

**steveb64** · 24th October 2007, 11:48

Jeez. Good luck mate. Can't think of much else to say...

**merv** · 24th October 2007, 11:49

Hey best wishes and hope it all works out OK for you.

**jrandom** · 24th October 2007, 11:51

Best of luck dude, and if it does turn out to be TC, chin up and fight the bastard.

If a girly-man like Lance Armstrong can beat it, you'll be sweet as.

**sels1** · 24th October 2007, 11:51

Crikey Paul, good luck mate. Hoping its just a cyst - when do you find out?

**Krusti** · 24th October 2007, 11:52

That sux mate, hope it all turns out ok....

**Her_C4** · 24th October 2007, 11:53

Well - I am lost for words.

Doesn't happen often - relish the moment.

My thoughts are with you Paul at this time - must be frustrating as all hell to know there is 'something' and not know the 'what' - that sux.

I hope that it is something rather innocuous - like a cyst or something as you say, and if not, well we will all be willing participants on the journey of discovery with you.

Use us to help keep you strong

'Good luck' seems such inadequate words to use here - but there is heartfelt feeling along with it and I wish you buckets of it....

**Mikkel** · 24th October 2007, 11:54

However, they are pretty good at shaving your balls at the hospital and nothing beats the cold gooey feel of that contact gel for the ultra-sound scanner... I'm almost getting myself wound up here

Seriously, it's not a fun thing to have. I went for a scan myself back in 2000 after having had sore balls for a while... Turned out to be nothing. Hope you'll get the same answer. But yeah, the waiting time is the worst.

Worst thing that can happen is that they have to come off which will remove your weakest spot in a pubbrawl.

**BarBender** · 24th October 2007, 11:54

Head down on the tank and keep the throttle pinned!

**Joni** · 24th October 2007, 11:55

Paul - as aleady mentioned, Im here if you need anything!

I'm hoping with all my hopes it turns out ok!

**007XX** · 24th October 2007, 11:56

Oh man! Really sorry to hear...Of course, I can't exactly relate anatomy wise, but I had a scare in the breast department 2 weeks before Christmas last year.

All the very best wishes sir!