Here's something for everyone out there that thinks they have it tough. An amasing woman I know has recently gone through a massive massive series of debilitating life events - all this since she was apprently fit and health October of last year...
Her latest journal/blog entry
- She was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer at what appears to be a terminal stage
- Her husband was killed in an accident at Christmas
- Her ongoing chemo and battle with cancer is leaving her drained, and she finds it difficult to get by sometimes
- Her mother just passed away
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I can't believe my last update was more than two weeks ago, though I guess I can understand why. The chemo that I had on Friday the 13th laid me so low that I feel like I just kind of missed that week completely. I was tired, had difficulty breathing, was itchy (all over) and generally felt terrible. I lost another few pounds and that seemed disasterous, as I am pretty thin now. I ended up going to the emergency room because I was having trouble breathing and they did the tests so that I could get my lungs drained when my brother called ot tell me that Mom had died. She was 92 and died peacefully in her sleep. But we hadn't quite expected it.
Anyway, the doctor tested me and said that he thought I could fly and so [my daughters] and I all went to Pennsylvania for the funeral. It was sad, but nice to see the family and it bolstered my spirits to know that I was still able to travel. (I had felt that I was on my last legs.)
We got back this week and I have been trying to get back into a pattern. Unfortunately, I haven't done well at it. It seems that I am tired when I want to be awake and vice versa. I see the doctor tomorrow and I will have my lungs drained. Perhaps that will give me more energy. In any case, Mom's dying has left me very sad both because of her and the reminder of [my recently deceased husband]. (This morning I wok up sure that [my husband] was resting against me and was very disappointed when I realized it was just a pillow.)
In any case, I have decided that I will not have the chemotherapy any more. It simply drains me too much. I want to enjoy this time. And I am trying to eat more in the hopes of gaining weight--wish me luck!
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So - ... I have problems in my life, I think we all do from time to time, but there's always someone a lot worse off... we only need to open our eyes to them.
Anyone bitching about fines, sore legs, self inflicted this or that... well... re-read Linda's journal above. I'm not saying you don't have problems - just keep in mind they could be a whole lot worse.
I can't imagine what she's going through... but the fact she's still fighting is pretty f'n inspiring if you ask me.
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Originally Posted by Wolf
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