Well ya probably placed yourself in contention for dumb idea of the year, but you accept that anyway. A friend of mine said that, strangely enough, the ones we love the most, are the ones we hurt the most.
You can accept that you did some dumb shit, but hey, time DOES heal most things. Not all, but most. There is still a chance that things may come back the other way again.
tough luck mate, but im sure youll find a way through