Katiepie graduates

**MarkH** · 24th May 2011, 15:18

Originally Posted by Katiepie

I have been sitting here tonight, trying to snap out of it. I have been trying to compose myself and move forward. I have been trying get back to how I am so good at being - positive and bubbly, and nothing is a problem.

But tonight, I am failing. I am unsure why this is. I am confused as to how this came about. The tears are flowing for only the second time for reasons of the accident, and it seems they are not going to stop anytime soon.

Life if full of ups & downs, I'm confident that in a few months you will have put this behind you. You have a right to be unhappy at times, you have been through a lot, just know that things will get better.

**Number One** · 24th May 2011, 15:55

Originally Posted by Genie

aww sweets.....you are travelling a bumpy, jerky road which is testing you on so many levels....and guess what?
You're passing these tests with an amazing amount of courage....the foundations of your life have bought you to this point and you are learning so much about yourself and others.

You bring out the best in everyone because you are one of the best. You have given me so much inspiration when I've been battling with stuff, that in comparsion is a spit in the ocean.

I'd love to have your gracious temperment, your gorgoues zest for life, your amazing ability to share your smile....you my dear, give my strength to be a better person. The world is a better place because you are in it, you give me faith in mankind.

Your fears are natural...and understandable. One day at a time, that is all you can do, reach out to those that love you, they are there to hold your hand, you are not alone.

+1 and good words for others I know too.

Remember the good stuff and focus on just the next steps. It sort of works for me and the trying is better than the alternative. Also I only allow myself a few hours a week where I really dwell and engage with the biggest worries and hurts I have...that seems to help me put a lid on them in terms of avoiding them bubbling up when it is really not helpful to me!

Other than that I just focus on soldiering through the little bits and pieces ahead as best I can things start to feel a bit more doable slowly but surely.

Anyway really I just wanted to say

**caseye** · 24th May 2011, 16:49

Katiepie, we none of us get a completely clean bill of health once we've been broken and believe me you'se was brok! girl.
Now then, as to these tears, well they come too, nothing anyone of us can do about them, they do one good thing, they make our eyes much cleaner which allows us to see far more clearly.
Remember, little steps mate, take em one at a time until the wobbles stop and you get going with complete balance again.
no one who is a friend of yours could stay mad at/with you for any length of time and if they are in a position to see this post of yours I'd be surprised if they hadn't already been in touch with you.
You are allowed to feel down and in the dumps, it's how you pull yourself out that defines what we all see in you and what makes us smile back when you smile for us!
Being helped by friends is what being a friend is all about, giving when needed, being there in good times and in bad and vanishing when the time is right.
Rest easy, get some sleep in your chair tonight and tomorrow will dawn a little better, I promise.

**Ratti** · 24th May 2011, 17:10

Originally Posted by Bald Eagle

What ? another bike ?? Is it a running one

well, it wasn't on Sunday, mostly battery and a starter issue, not as serious as the ones already in the shed.
Same model tho...4..count 'em dude 4 early80's KZ1000J's....(a valliant attempt to corner the market!)
Hoping to have this one sorted by the BRONZ AGM on the weekend.

You still Metroing to work????

**Maha** · 24th May 2011, 17:46

Originally Posted by Ratti

well, it wasn't on Sunday, mostly battery and a starter issue, not as serious as the ones already in the shed.
Same model tho...4..count 'em dude 4 early80's KZ1000J's....(a valliant attempt to corner the market!)
Hoping to have this one sorted by the BRONZ AGM on the weekend.

You still Metroing to work????

Is that another made up word to slap on a hillside?...

**sinfull** · 24th May 2011, 17:59

Originally Posted by \m/

Sounds like withdrawl symptoms after not riding for so long.

Originally Posted by Paul in NZ

You know - I think its just a bit more serious than that....

I smell opiates !!!

Pleased to see ya still bloging it all KP ! A message in a "bottle up" don't get out there !

**Smallfishnz** · 24th May 2011, 21:57

Katie
It is obvious that you have lots of people that think very highly of you, so don't forget that they are out there and willing to help.

You are in my thoughts constantly and because of that you will never be alone.

God Bless

**sels1** · 26th May 2011, 17:14

Originally Posted by Katiepie

But tonight, I am failing. .

Thank goodness, you are human after all - I was begining to wonder!

Dont worry, things will fall into place but it will take time. This will pass into history like every other bad (and good) thing thats ever happened.
We'll pop over some time soon

**Genie** · 26th May 2011, 18:16

To all of you who have written such beautiful words to Katie-pie, I thank you. She is an adorable young lady and her courage through life before her accident was remarkable and what I have read and seen, since her accident has shown me that she truely is a most amazing young women.

I personally want to thank you for all the encourgement you have given to Katie, which in turn, has shown me that there are some so many amazing people in this world.

Dear, dear, this thread does pull on the hearstrings doesn't it?

**Gone Burger** · 27th May 2011, 01:08

It is 12.52am on Friday. Good morning world! There is a gentle drizzle outside, the rural valley is hushed and still, and I sit here pondering so many wonderful things. In the future, on a night just like this, I shall get on my bike and ride a gentle ride. Head to a beautiful location, and take it the stunningly silenced early hours of the morning. Now that is the kind of living that makes me feel so alive!

I have moved past my low point earlier in the week, and now feel rather strange, in a beautiful way. I have never felt so calm before. I am sitting here with a bit of a cheeky smile on my face and I'm not sure how that crept up on me. But I welcome it greatly, and believe that this time it may be here to stay.

I just want each of you to know how much I value your support. Your kind words, your visits, your messages and ideas. I have a huge heart, and room it in for all of you. I am a gentle soul who loves her friends and family to pieces. But you are all special. You have all given me strength and positivity to make something of all this. And I plan to write a full blog about my day to day adventures - from the good, to the bad, to the confusion of it all. But tonight I have strength, and I will be holding onto it for dear life.

Katiepie is back folks, and that is a promise. xxxxxxxxx

**kilgh** · 27th May 2011, 01:28

Right, now go to bed!

But seriously, glad you are feeling better. Love this weather and time of night myself.

**oneofsix** · 27th May 2011, 07:32

Glad to read there is a smile back on that dial. Looking forward to the bubble and bounce in the next post

I hope you are asleep right now as this is posted but enjoy what this gray day has to offer when you wake.

**Gone Burger** · 5th June 2011, 17:14

Hello beautiful people.

I have been working on my own website, with photos and blogs for others to see. It is intended to try and help other people in halos cope with this new way of living day to day. i have made a lot of halo friends from all over the world, and what we all lack is access to other people stories. So this is for them.

It's still a work in progress. I am writing new blogs most days to try and update the past 11 weeks or so. But bare with me as I add new entries and photos along the way.

One blog will be of all my face book status updates along the way. That is an interesting one on it's own and shows the true pattern of up down up down.

2 weeks to go folks til I'm halo free. Please excuse my language but fuck im exceited!

www.katiepie.webs.com