About 3 years ago I was wiped off the road by a truck & semi. Bike was a writeoff, and wrote off a car travelling in the opposite direction. I was unconscious for a bit & wound up in hospital. Eventually I made a full recovery. The really hard bits for me have been:
* the truck driver was driving sensibly but had to swerve in to me to avoid someone else
* I did nothing wrong (on this occasion!), so why did it happen at all?
* what actually did happen - (even the police are not sure & they decided not to prosecute anybody)
* given the scene of mechanical carnage, how did I get out alive?
I am sure you will have these issues with the what ifs & whys. In the end "Shit happens" as they say, and you just have to shrug & get on with enjoying what you like doing & even accept that a repeat is possible.
Glad you both walked away.
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