This is something I wrote a while ago to someone who had been suffering from ongoing problems from a concussion, and was in the process of selling all his bikes.
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I had cereballar bleeding from a cavernous hemangioma about seven years ago, seriously impacting my balance and co-ordination for several months. I can relate to your decision to sell your two-wheeled vehicles; I went through a similar decision making process.
At the time my "daily" ride was a 2005 Kawasaki ZX10R with thousands spent on suspension and exhaust to make it the best road & track day bike I could build. I knew after the bleed that I might never be able to ride it with the skill I was used to, but I also knew that if I sold it I might never find my way back onto two wheels again, and that was something I would always regret.
In the end I decided to keep it. When I felt capable of riding it again I found that, although my symptoms were greatly improved, my confidence had been seriously hurt. I rode it only occasionally, and gradually improved each time. It was 2010 before I dared go out on the track again. I went to a track day and spent the day riding mid- to front-field in the medium class. I felt a bit silly at first but as the day wore on I felt more and more at home - not faster, just more confident. I even dropped the bike in the paddock at one point, because my left leg still doesn't always do what I expect of it! In the end I had an absolute ball.
I realised that I wasn't going to be doing the same sort of riding that I had been doing before the haemorrhage and resolved to sell the Kwaka, but to replace it. I ended up back on Ducati riding an ST4s (I'd previously riden a '92 900SS for many years) and I absolutely love it.
I understand your reasons for selling, and I'm sure you've put a lot of thought into it before making the call. For me, I found that having the bike in the garage helped me to keep the goal in sight. I've been riding two wheels my entire adult life and I knew that was something I didn't want to give up.
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