Katiepie graduates

[blue rider]

hello Miss Katiepie,

myself I have been following your story since the beginning and I will join all others who find you to be an inspiration.

this is most excellent news you are sharing with us .....riding again, fixed bike, and engaged.

be well always

[Gone Burger]

Pic's of the ring ... ??? Congrat's by the way ... and how far south are you coming ... ???

Pics as requested - :shit:

Not sure the route south - leaving it up to my friends who have organised it all. I do know we are going to Hamner Springs though, and I could sure use a good soak in some lovely hot pools.

[steve_t]

Pics as requested - :shit:

Not sure the route south - leaving it up to my friends who have organised it all. I do know we are going to Hamner Springs though, and I could sure use a good soak in some lovely hot pools.

That's a nice ring! That glarey one reflecting the sun is a pretty sweet shot! :love: :wari: Bet you've had a cheesy smile on your face all week ;)

[cc rider]

Congratulations Katie & Jason :wings:

A most magical memory of a beautiful moment. We are all so happy for you girl. :grouphug:

It was a great race indeed.
Have fun on your Southern Trek. :D

CC

[caseye]

Well.Remember, aye, small steps.
Yeah Right!
Go for it Girl.
Take care our kid, down in the deep South.
Now, boy, do we have a reason for a Part EEEEE.

[Reckless]

Well I don't post here much anymore but after gettin your txt and now lookin at the pics on facebook and here. I thought I might drag the keyboard up for this special occasion :2thumbsup

Still pissed off I didn't make cold kiwi to have a few beers with Jason! Say Hi and congrats from me aye!!

Well Sunshine I am so glad things over the last year have worked out so well for a most deserving person.

I most sincerely wish you and Jason the happiest future possible! :yes:

Katiepie has certainly Graduated now by golly!! Whooohooo!!! :first:

oh PS The bike looks good :ride:

[brumax]

congrats KP, look forward to gettin your stories of the south island trip,
have an awesome time :wings:

[Toaster]

Pics as requested - :shit:

Not sure the route south - leaving it up to my friends who have organised it all. I do know we are going to Hamner Springs though, and I could sure use a good soak in some lovely hot pools.


Fantastic Katie! Very pleased indeed for you both. Congratulations!

[rickstv]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Gi_cYFoCzw&feature=related
Congrats, my gift to you.:sunny:

Rick.

[sels1]

Congrats all round, Pie
Gotta love a story with a happy ending!

[Hinny]

Oooooooohhhhhh!
That is so romantic.
Best wishes for a wonderful life together. :niceone:

[Arrowolf]

Congratulations Katie & Jason

Maybe, you had to go thru all this, to find the happiness you just found.

Hanmer Springs is great, we are just back from a ride around south island with the local club. waktatipu motorcycle club. After a long day on the bike,it is good to play in the hot pools. If you come to Arrowtown, come in for a coffee. Bonjour Cafe & Restaurant.
Have a nice ride.
Wolfgang

[Toaster]

Hey anybody know what has happened to Katie? I see she has vanished from facebook... I gather something is up?!

[short-circuit]

Hey anybody know what has happened to Katie? I see she has vanished from facebook... I gather something is up?!

Officially over attention whoring at last? :yawn:

[blackdog]

Hey anybody know what has happened to Katie? I see she has vanished from facebook... I gather something is up?!

She is all good Toaster.


Officially over attention whoring at last? :yawn:

More like over self indulgent holier than thou cunts passing judgement, when they themselves are far from perfect and can't get out from behind a keyboard to have a life of their own.

[pritch]

I seem to recall she posted to KB in the last day or so?

[short-circuit]

More like over self indulgent holier than thou cunts passing judgement, when they themselves are far from perfect and can't get out from behind a keyboard to have a life of their own.

How chivalrous thou art white knight. She probably won't shag you ya know bro.

[blackdog]

How chivalrous thou art white knight. She probably won't shag you ya know bro.

Oh yawn already. Obvious troll is obvious troll.

[The Singing Chef]

Ahh she has indeed disappeared from FB, might have something to do with recent events.

[GingerMidget]

Oh yawn already. Obvious troll is obvious troll.

Also rather boring!

[jrandom]

More like over self indulgent holier than thou cunts passing judgement

Haters be hatin'.

And attention whores be whorin'.

She'll be back for a new 'un once he gets tired of her.

:sunny:

(I'd say it feels good to be right, but I've just gotten so used to it over the years...)

[jrandom]

Also rather boring!

Will GingerMidget drop off the radar once someone starts tapping it?

Place bets now!

[rachprice]

Some of you guys should be fucking ashamed of yourselves

[jrandom]

Some of you guys should be fucking ashamed of yourselves

I'm just a bit worried now about that test ride I was going to call Pete about next week.

:pinch:

[Mom]

I'm just a bit worried now about that test ride I was going to call Pete about next week.

:pinch:

You a bit bored Dan?

[Crasherfromwayback]

I'm just a bit worried now about that test ride I was going to call Pete about next week.

:pinch:

She's her own boss. Come down...ride bikes...bring your wallet. Even a pen will do.:innocent:

[jrandom]

You a bit bored Dan?

kiwifruit suggested I go and have a look at his Scorpio tyre thread. It's his fault I'm on here.

"I should stop suggesting things for you, aye. You take them and RUN. The wrong way. I don't give you any permission to post what I'm saying."
- kiwifruit

[Crasherfromwayback]

Officially over attention whoring at last? :yawn:

You're a cocksucker. I bet your mum sexually interfered with you.

[caseye]

You're a cocksucker. I bet your mum sexually interfered with you.

Cant bling ya mate, but couldn't let it pass, he is a Cock Sucker!

[sinfull]

I still think she's luffly !

[nzmikey]

Officially over attention whoring at last? :yawn:

No I would say KP is over cunts like you :bash:

[jrandom]

I still think she's luffly !

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[Crasherfromwayback]

Cant bling ya mate, but couldn't let it pass, he is a Cock Sucker!

Any guy that thinks reducing a lovely person, especially a girl, to tears is fun/cool/tough/funny is a fucking retarded latent homosexual.

[Madness]

I bet if he walked into WMCC tomorrow with 35k to spend on a bike you'd make him a coffee though, eh?

[Crasherfromwayback]

. She probably won't shag you ya know bro.

And she certainly wouldn't shag you. Maybe that's why you're so bitter towards her? You hit on her and get told you're aiming too high?

Because you would be.

[Crasherfromwayback]

I bet if he walked into WMCC tomorrow with 35k to spend on a bike you'd make him a coffee though, eh?

Shows just how well you don't know me.

[Madness]

Fairy nuff. We all know you're coffee's not the best anyway :innocent:

[blackdog]

Fairy nuff. We all know you're coffee's not the best anyway :innocent:

And for Christ's sake don't let him make you anything with a teabag!

[jrandom]

I bet if he walked into WMCC tomorrow with 35k to spend on a bike you'd make him a coffee though, eh?

AMPS got one Nightster's worth of business on account of that not being the case.

But I need to have a wee chat to someone about something with a pillion seat, now, and whilst Greg Pratt's a lovely guy, he just smokes way too much weed. It's not that he can't line his ducks up in a row. It's more like they've all flown south for the winter. So Pete it shall be...

[Crasherfromwayback]

Fairy nuff. We all know you're coffee's not the best anyway :innocent:

That's 'your' Old Bean. People come from miles around for my coffee. It's a misconception that it's crap.

[caseye]

Some of us go to Welly from places near and "far" and pop in to say Hi to Crasher, butt do turn down an offer of "coffee" Tea bag?? Come on spill, ya've made me wonder now???

[Mom]

Fairy nuff. We all know you're coffee's not the best anyway :innocent:

Its ok, I survived it.


And for Christ's sake don't let him make you anything with a teabag!

Makes M.O.T?


That's 'your' Old Bean. People come from miles around for my coffee. It's a misconception that it's crap.

You just have to watch that last mouthfull of bones though eh :dodge:

[Gone Burger]

Officially over attention whoring at last? :yawn:

Still around, just not the same person I was a year ago. Quite simple.

Thanks Toaster, hope you and the family are well mate.

[Katman]

and whilst Greg Pratt's a lovely guy

Ray is too.

[caseye]

Gidday there mate, good to see you here, in your thread! The place where most of us who come here have wondered at your instinct for survival and striving for normallacy while afflicted by natures cruel twists.
I know these jackasses won't affect you ( how could they now?)
Just know that we're all still, in your corner.
That Hug "at "The Garage" in the HUTT in Feb was confirmation that katiepie was back.
Take care.
Cas.

[jrandom]

Ray is too.

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[Gone Burger]

That Hug "at "The Garage" in the HUTT in Feb was confirmation that katiepie was back.
Take care.
Cas.

Far from back Cas but it wonderful to see you and the crew in Feb. Cheers for the hug

[Katman]

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Fuck, I'm on a roll tonight.

Google has just informed me that there is actually a Greg Pratt there.

double :facepalm:

[Toaster]

You're a cocksucker. I bet your mum sexually interfered with you.

Does birth count as sexual interference with your mother?

[Toaster]

Still around, just not the same person I was a year ago. Quite simple.

Thanks Toaster, hope you and the family are well mate.

I am all good thanks... up until midnight... then life is supposed to start again.

Just came back from a South Island tour holiday - 6 in a campervan. The only downside was I wasn't on a motorcycle! Great break and enjoyed the incredible scenery and complete lack of people.

I managed to keep ahead of most vehicles although overtaking got a bit hairy with a severe lack of grunt. I did manage to overtake a biker... although he was on a Royal Enfield! I miss motorcycling but the finances don't allow it for now.

I'll be back one day.

[Ronin]

Does birth count as sexual interference with your mother?

Wouldn't be the last time Mr Random dribbled out of a cunt.

[Hawkeye]

Still around, just not the same person I was a year ago. Quite simple.



Hi Katie, Good to see you still around even if it is in the background. Give me a shout sometime and we can catch up.

[short-circuit]

Good morning white knights/chest thumpers/desparados, I see my earlier comments caused some offence
...glad to see I haven't lost my touch

[Crasherfromwayback]

...glad to see I haven't lost my touch

Only thing you've been touching is yourself.

[short-circuit]

Only thing you've been touching is yourself.

No, that's you and the crew as you dream of the OP rewarding you for your brave internet retorts.

[Crasherfromwayback]

No, that's you and the crew as you dream of the OP rewarding you for your brave internet retorts.

KT is a friend of mine, and my GF. I have no desire to want to root her lovely as she is. She's no 'attention whore'. Funnily enough, a lot of your posts scream out "ATTENTION WHORE". Do you have a GF? Serious question.

[SMOKEU]

:corn: :corn:

[jrandom]

KT is a friend of mine, and my GF.

Ambiguous sentence is ambiguous.

:doobey:


Do you have a GF? Serious question.

Are you trying to imply that men who choose to be single somehow lack moral authority?

[Ronin]

Ambiguous sentence is ambiguous.

:doobey:



Are you trying to imply that men who choose to be single somehow lack moral authority?

I'm curious as to why you seem so obsessed with KT to be honest. Aside of course from obvious troll being obvious.

[jrandom]

I'm curious as to why you seem so obsessed with KT to be honest. Aside of course from obvious troll being obvious.

Me? I'm not. KP and I had a good solid chat on the side and got it out of our systems. (We're hardly friends, but mutual understanding doesn't always have to result in mutual regard...)

I'll comment on her if she comes up in conversation, but I'm more coming in at a tangent, now. She's a McGuffin. I'm interested in the other participants. As, in fact, I always was.

Edit: My original point, which more or less started the whole anti-Katie movement, was a commentary on how she acted as a catalyst for certain types of behaviour in others. Her own motivations and intentions have always been more or less irrelevant.

[scumdog]

I'll comment on her if she comes up in conversation, but I'm more coming in at a tangent, now. She's a McGuffin. I'm interested in the other participants. As, in fact, I always was.

.

WTF does THAT mean????:confused::blink:

[short-circuit]

KT is a friend of mine, and my GF.

Interesting arrangement. What does your missus think?



Do you have a GF? Serious question.

You really are open minded aren't you :love:

[short-circuit]

I'm interested in the other participants. As, in fact, I always was.

Yes. Such I high level of concern. Middle aged men reaching deep into their pockets for her in her time of need as I recall.....probably the majority for a game of pocket pool

[jrandom]

Yes. Such I high level of concern. Middle aged men reaching deep into their pockets for her in her time of need as I recall.....probably the majority for a game of pocket pool

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[MIXONE]

Wouldn't be the last time Mr Random dribbled out of a cunt.

I know it looks like a cunt but it's actually his mouth.

[jrandom]

i know it looks like a cunt but it's actually his mouth.

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[Crasherfromwayback]

Ambiguous sentence is ambiguous.

:doobey:

Yeah that's meant to read she's a friend of mine and also a friend of my girlfriend.

Are you trying to imply that men who choose to be single somehow lack moral authority?

No. I'm wondering if there's any chick out there that would actually go out with such a cunt.

[jrandom]

No. I'm wondering if there's any chick out there that would actually go out with such a cunt.

There undoubtedly is.

The full flavour of one's personality (not to mention the impact of one's handsome face and sculpted buttocks, etc) doesn't come across during trolling.

As I've said before, the online harvest and enjoyment of rage's sweet nectar can be integrated as part of a balanced and fulfilling lifestyle.

[short-circuit]

No. I'm wondering if there's any chick out there that would actually go out with such a cunt.

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[madbikeboy]

There undoubtedly is.

The full flavour of one's personality (not to mention the impact of one's handsome face and sculpted buttocks, etc) doesn't come across during trolling.


You forget to mention that women with lousy taste in men seem to be attracted to complete cunts, which explains you finding unpaid female company.

[jrandom]

You forget to mention that women with lousy taste in men seem to be attracted to complete cunts, which explains you finding unpaid female company.

madbikeboy! It's been ages. You know, I honestly can't remember why you don't like me. What was that all about, again?

I need to start keeping these things in some kind of notebook.

[rachprice]

Interesting arrangement. What does your missus think?


We have a grand old time together :love:

[jrandom]

We have a grand old time together :love:

PIXPLZ

:sunny:

[Gone Burger]

Friday afternoon and I am still in bed. Dogs are both snoring their heads off on the floor beside me, and I know they are enjoying some quiet company. An incredibly confusing year has come to an end, and I begin to work very hard at being the person I want to be again, and grab hold of the drive and determination that very much used to be a part of me.

Not crying for attention. Couldn't give a stuff about that. But what I do care about is updating some very dear people out there with where I am at after much silence. I know many of you have been following my blog. But I have kept a lot of information off that for various reasons.

Last Friday I made a phone call to my mum. I had just managed to walk away from the very life I was living and felt something inside me I had not felt for a very long time. I asked her to think back to 2 days before my accident and what I told her. I said I was at the point on my life of pure excitement, hugely happy, could take on anything and would be fighting very hard to a better job and really begin living life on my own. I rode that weekend with a smile fixed upon my face, thrilled to bits with how I had made it through some personal challenges and had earnt my freedom. This was happiness. I had the confidence in me to take it all on!

I regained this feeling for my first time last Friday. I walked away from all that has been, all the confusion in my life as a result of lossing it all in the first place. And excitement burnt inside me so much that I simply had to call my family and let them know I was there.

After a huge amount of applications and exams, testing, meetings, interviews, offers that were not right for me... I might nearly be there and be about to start my new career. It's been over a year since loosing my long term job. I made the best of the situation I had up until now, and am taking control and making sure I now choose the future I want.

My leg is still greatly swollen. It is very much still full of fluid, and the pain in very high when I feel each pulse of blood moving past my plate and screws. Most doctors are saying its fine, I will one day ask if I needs to be taken out. My neck feels like exploding with pressure each and every day. I have 80% movement to one side, and about 50% movement the other way. Qucik movement trigger migraines. My back hurts put these pains have become a normal pain, and something that now seems to be part of me. I notice them when I think about it, but carry on as normal until my body tells me I have done too much (life splitting firewood last weekend - fuck that hurt! - But I got it done ;)) Living on trammadol and sleeping tablets and thanking the world for having such great drugs.

I ride my bike and fall more in love with every time. Often throwing up from pain after a long ride with the pressure in my neck, but also used to how that feels knowing it will never be the same again. I am lucky enough to even be holding it up on a sports bike and riding so certainly no complaints there. I rode from Wellington to Auckland over Easter to see my family. I was not very well for the week following and now know that one way in a day was more than my body was that chuffed about. Use to do it so easily and have done many times before. But smaller steps for a while and I respect it will take time.

I have lost my confidence as a person hugely through recent events. I have been living on my own and keeping very much to myself in this little world I have. I ride mostly on my own now, and tread with great caution around all those who showed their true colours to me over the past while. Nothing wrong with getting back to doing things solo again. I was so happy doing it before the crash, I am now learning to accept it again and also how to enjoy it again. I began this ride on my own, and for myself. I now continue it in the same fashion. Time to get back on my feet, learning how to sleep again slowly, getting a little more energy by the day, and will find a job that is mine to work very hard in and begin paying off all the loans and expenses a silly mistake one afternoon cost me.

Riding to Manfield to watch the VMCC winter series on Saturday. Lookig forward to a nice cruisy ride up, catch up with some great folk, and then get home to my pups that simply love to me bits, and are still there right at my side. I am helping out with the LifeFlight Open day on Sunday, alongside Dave Greenburg, and Clive Button. Hugely looking forward to this day - come along and say hi, grab a saussie.

An overdue update, not a cry for attention. Those who know me well see it in my eyes each time they see me, I am a different person these days, and fighting hard to get back to where I want to be. What a ride so far.... what would I do without motorcycling?

[SMOKEU]

Living on trammadol and sleeping tablets and thanking the world for having such great drugs.



You know those drugs are addictive, right? Keep it green.

[Newbi]

Awesome update, you are an amazingly strong woman and I respect you greatly, Take care xoxo

[Smallfishnz]

Great to hear that you are still out there on two wheels. Very sorry to hear that you are still living in so much pain.

I will keep praying for a complete recovery for you
GodBless
Martin

[Paul in NZ]

Stop being a superhero Katie - if you want wood splitting you KNOW who to call... :innocent:

You need any more doing?

[SMOKEU]

You need any more doing?

I'm sure she does.

[caseye]

Katiepie, you take it just one day at a time aye, what have I always told you? "small, steps"
Seems you might've actually got the hang of doing just that.
You didn't die that day, you've fought long and hard, things and people have come and gone, but Katiepie is.
Nothing wrong with having a cry, even if it's the hundredth in a day, it proves your still alive and kicking and it gets things out of the system.
A lot has happened that most of us out here don't know, we don't need to. Long as we know you are still kicking back at anything that gives you shiete, that's all the matters.
You have many many many friends out here.
Ask and it'll get done, on ya Paul, I hate chopping wood.
Next time you're up this way, remember there are a few of us up here who'd love to ride or just have a yarn with ya.
Yes, this is KB and yes I've written something dumb, go on boys tell me about it.
I don't give a big rats backside katiepie is a friend and always gives me great big hugs when I see her, so there.

[Edbear]

You know those drugs are addictive, right? Keep it green.

I wouldn't be out of bed without them. I have researched Tramadol and discussed it with my GP and it is one of the "better" drugs for long term pain control. You simply can't function if you are in chronic severe pain no matter how you feel about drugs. All you can do is try to find one with the least long term side effects that still manages the pain and accept you are doing your best and what is necessary.

[chanceyy]

Hugs chicky, life really throws some curve balls aye, on ya and you know where we are :)

[Katman]

I wouldn't be out of bed without them.

Explains a lot.

[Pussy]

and accept you are doing your best and what is necessary.

Blood transfusions too??

[DMNTD]

I wouldn't be out of bed without them. I have researched Tramadol and discussed it with my GP and it is one of the "better" drugs for long term pain control. You simply can't function if you are in chronic severe pain no matter how you feel about drugs. All you can do is try to find one with the least long term side effects that still manages the pain and accept you are doing your best and what is necessary.

...yet you have passed judgement on myself and other that choose a lil' bit of weed instead?
I was on those (plus other legal drugs) for nearly a decade...ffs, be aware of what you're about to endure when coming off, plus the longer lasting effects! I wouldn't wish it on many...some, but not many

[blackdog]

Stop being a superhero Katie - if you want wood splitting you KNOW who to call... :innocent:

You need any more doing?

Saves on gym memberships.

[blackdog]

...yet you have passed judgement on myself and other that choose a lil' bit of weed instead?
I was on those (plus other legal drugs) for nearly a decade...ffs, be aware of what you're about to endure when coming off, plus the longer lasting effects! I wouldn't wish it on many...some, but not many

I was biting my tongue, but I am glad ya said something. I have a well established connection with addiction and recovery services, cannabis is WAY down the bottom of the scale of harm causing drugs. Next to coffee.

It's efficacy however, in comparison can make many lives bearable without having to submit to narcotic drugs.

[Newbi]

I was biting my tongue, but I am glad ya said something. I have a well established connection with addiction and recovery services, cannabis is WAY down the bottom of the scale of harm causing drugs. Next to coffee.

It's efficacy however, in comparison can make many lives bearable without having to submit to narcotic drugs.

Does it help with Migraines, cos im ready to try anything at this stage.

[blackdog]

Does it help with Migraines, cos im ready to try anything at this stage.

From 8 years old until my early thirties I suffered from debilitating migraines after a head injury. The answer is yes it can help, also for nausea/vomiting which is often a problem for migraine sufferers.

I haven't had one for a few years now, I'm touching wood. They did start lessening in severity through my twenties if that is any encouragement Newbi.

[Katman]

Sorry, but Edbear only causes migranes - not cures them.

[Newbi]

From 8 years old until my early thirties I suffered from debilitating migraines after a head injury. The answer is yes it can help, also for nausea/vomiting which is often a problem for migraine sufferers.

I haven't had one for a few years now, I'm touching wood. They did start lessening in severity through my twenties if that is any encouragement Newbi.

Thanks for that, i'm past my twenties, unfortunately lol, well i might just give it a try. Had a bad migraine yesterday and did throw up in the morning, and I have tried so many different drugs and lots of them to no avail.

[pritch]

cannabis is WAY down the bottom of the scale of harm causing drugs.

Now if only someone could make it taste nice :shutup:

Well, better than a burning hedge?

[GingerMidget]

Now if only someone could make it taste nice :shutup:

Well, better than a burning hedge?

Thats what icecream is for, getting rid of the taste!

[Madness]

Now if only someone could make it taste nice :shutup:

Well, better than a burning hedge?

Sounds like you've been smoking cabbage bro! :laugh:

[FJRider]

Sorry, but Edbear only causes migranes - not cures them.

Must be just YOU ... He's never caused ME any problems ... :whocares:

[blackdog]

Now if only someone could make it taste nice :shutup:

Well, better than a burning hedge?

Amateur never heard of a cookie.

[Katman]

Must be just YOU ... He's never caused ME any problems ... :whocares:

Yeah, I figured a while ago that you're cut from the same cloth.

At least you don't ram your religion down other's throats.

[Tigadee]

At least you don't ram your religion down other's throats.

Better religion than something else, if you know what I mean... :whistle:

[FJRider]

At least you don't ram your religion down other's throats.

Keep your mout SHUT ... and ... NOBODY CAN ... try it ... !!! :p:p:p

[SMOKEU]

Sounds like you've been smoking cabbage bro! :laugh:

Better off turning it into oil or "special cake".

[DMNTD]

Better off turning it into oil or "special cake".

Actually when rendered down in butter and turned into cake,cookies or similar, and if eaten in small/moderate amounts, it has a great medicinal effect.

[SMOKEU]

Actually when rendered down in butter and turned into cake,cookies or similar, and if eaten in small/moderate amounts, it has a great medicinal effect.

Can't honestly say I've ever tried it. Sounds tasty though.

[DMNTD]

Can't honestly say I've ever tried it. Sounds tasty though.

Well I'm only talking re medicinal in this case, but if you 'need' to try it, use some fruit in the mix, muffins work well.

[Newbi]

Well I'm only talking re medicinal in this case, but if you 'need' to try it, use some fruit in the mix, muffins work well.

Well i'm the mean baker so I think im gonna make me a batch of special brownies.

[Madness]

Well i'm the mean baker so I think im gonna make me a batch of special brownies.

:drool: :msn-wink:

[Newbi]

:drool: :msn-wink:

Want some??:msn-wink:

[Madness]

Want some??:msn-wink:

Brownies??

[yod]

Well I'm only talking re medicinal in this case, but if you 'need' to try it, use some fruit in the mix, muffins work well.

'kin oath

Great for the flicks, lasts longer. :msn-wink:

[Nasty]

Great moves Katie ... :)

Only way to go is forward!

[Hellzie]

Hello lovely people.

I'm grinning from ear to ear. I have just passed my full license!

Was a bundle of nerves this morning, and had a few issues before the exam. But all went very smoothly indeed and I made it!!! I'm simply thrilled and rather proud of myself. This is something that I never thought I would do. And all of a sudden the wonderful world of motocycling has taken me by storm.

I have never been so happy or excited, what an incredible world I seemed to have discovered.

And the bonus of no more tests really is quite lovely. Pressure off, now it's my time to relax, enjoy, upgrade and live it up a little! Not mention, have some serious fun.

Today, is a very good day. :woohoo:

This was two years ago exactly. What a ride aye?

[Newbi]

Brownies??

Um, yeah, Would ya like a side with that??:msn-wink:

[GingerMidget]

Um, yeah, Would ya like a side with that??:msn-wink:

You can bake me something when you come down for my birthday :D

[Newbi]

You can bake me something when you come down for my birthday :D

Deal! Do you want "special" brownies too?

[GingerMidget]

Lol. Thats a fairly loaded question :p

I want brownies now. Brownies and icecream. Vanilla icecream.

[Newbi]

Lol. Thats a fairly loaded question :p

I want brownies now. Brownies and icecream. Vanilla icecream.

Oh god me too yummmmmmmy!

[GingerMidget]

Custard and peaches will have to do. No burny fingers this time!

[Hinny]

Does it help with Migraines, cos im ready to try anything at this stage.

Former All Black Steve Devine gets Botox injections to quell migraines he developed from too many concussions.
Could be the go.

Special Fruit and Nut chocolate is highly recommended. :innocent: .....apparently.

[robinm]

Just seen Katiepie on a TV one program about firefighters, she is looking great.

[Paul in NZ]

Update in case you didnt know already...

http://www.stuff.co.nz/dominion-post/news/8229830/Crash-victim-gets-back-on-her-bike

[Daffyd]

Good on ya KP. You're an inspiration!

[caseye]

Cheers Paul, miss our Katie pie around here I do.
Pleased to see she's onto it and aiming high.

[PrincessBandit]

That's amazing - a true inspiration. I wish her all the very best for her continued recovery and travels'n'adventures!

[Tink]

That is great news, and a very good article! Go KP you can do anything! Thumbs up

[Old Steve]

You rock KatiePie!! Have a great trip down south, perfect preparation for your OE tour.

[Banditbandit]

You go girl ... get that bike rockin' ..

[Hitcher]

It's great to see positive news. However I would caution Katie (and others) who have been stricken with major head trauma, that it takes quite a while for all of the related fug to blow itself away. A&E specialists don't tell you about what you should prepare for or what it could mean across all facets of your life. They just want you to go home. You might feel like you're back to "normal" soon after your bump, but that's probably most unlikely. Full recovery will take some time -- probably some years.

Watch the interview between Stirling Moss and Richard Hammond (it's on YouTube). There's a lot of history about motorsport and other interesting blokey stuff, but amongst it are some great insights about how head trauma can fuck you around. That was the gold I found in it.

It takes a while for your brain to sort out what it's supposed to be doing with dopamine and serotonin. If you want to know what those obscure sounding chemicals are supposed to do for you, Wikipedia will tell you lots.

How do I know this? I just do. I'm a "work in progress".

[Crasherfromwayback]

I'm a "work in progress".

With the size of the mellon you have...it was always gonna take time!:p

[nadroj]

With the size of the mellon you have...it was always gonna take time!:p

........and that's when it's not swollen!

[Toaster]

Yes, very true regarding head injuries. I though I was fine after my 2008 crash, so once the other injuries healed I went back to work as soon as I could. That was a huge mistake in hindsight with 2009 becoming an utter disaster of a year.... I still have some effects from the injury now, although I have worked fulltime since 2010 and cope fine. The pencil just doesn't seem as sharp though...

[Hitcher]

Some people might say that this is Buddhist shit. I reckon it works because it has helped me a lot, and still does for that matter. Make of it what you will.

http://www.freemindfulness.org/breath
http://bpd.about.com/od/livingwithbpd/ht/mind_walking.htm

[Mom]

How do I know this? I just do. I'm a "work in progress".

Aren't we all?


I also suffer a BRAIN INJURY THAT MAKES ME GRUMPY, Opps :love: Most people are broken in some way. Have a little compassion FFS.

I remember when Hitcher was a broken arse. It scared me :yes:

My biggest compassion though was for his family, and friends :dodge:

Kudos to KP for where she was, and what she has endured, and where she is now.

The others may simply Get Fucked!

[Hinny]

Kudos to KP for where she was, and what she has endured, and where she is now.

The others may simply Get Fucked!

Oh! so succinct. :yes:

[Reckless]

Kudos to KP for where she was, and what she has endured, and where she is now.

The others may simply Get Fucked!

Well said Mom :) Amen to that!

[Katiepie]

I have spent the past few weeks reading back through all of these messages in this thread. Why? I am unsure as to my answer to that. Perhaps it is because I am still so unsettled about much of it. Or perhaps it is because I am now tired of having to tread on egg shells here in Wellington around any biker that I ever meet – in case I say the wrong thing, cope more abuse from people who don’t even know me. I miss riding and being able to laugh and be me around others. I do this well now in my own world, but there is something missing that I once had before.

Those of you who knew me before the crash will know that I am different now. Very different. I still ride my much loved Yamaha R6 that I rebuilt after the crash. To be able to ride it for me is a real luxury. Financially I was rather screwed from the accident – from loss of career, to lack of support from ACC, covering medical bills (yes still going to physio therapy and have been paying for this myself since only 3 months after the accident), medical and behavioural issues with my two dogs as a result of the accident… so to sometime be able to keep my bike road legal with a WOF and rego it a real treat indeed. There have been many times where I have come close to selling it, knowing full well that it will be many years until I can buy another of any description. So I have fought hard to keep it, and every few months get a few days of it being legal to get out for a ride again. And it’s those few rides that still make me happier than ever before, and feeling completely free from rebuilding a whole life. For this I am extremely thankful. I miss riding more than I can ever explain in words. Before the accident riding had allowed me to find a new world that I had been longing to find for many years, build confidence within myself, dream new dreams, and find freedom that made my heart truly sing. I miss all of this terribly and look forward to working my way back there one day.

But now when I ride, I ride solo. I no longer have any social network of riders that I can fit into, I do not have anyone I call ask to hit the road with and have a proper laugh with. From a wonderfully supportive scene it has become a world that I have never felt so alone in, and even many of those who were once at my side during the early recovery can hardly talk to me, look me in the eye, laugh with me or reply to my messages.

Many of you will also know that I received a lot of cyber abuse and bullying from early on in my recovery too. From people who had never ever met me, some who had and once been a friend. What many don’t know is that abuse was not just received on here where it started. It carried on right through until the end of last year when I was dealing with the recent loss of my father. The last attack was when I was visiting my grieving family in Auckland and receiving some very very nasty words that made my whole family fall apart at the time, and my brother blamed me. I nearly lost my brother from my world with how I was handing the ongoing crap from my accident 2 years on. It was no longer just online, it was my email, through my own website, by phone and even in person. As a result I fell heavily into Post Traumatic Stress Disorder in 2012, and it took right through until the end of 2013 to pull through it. I had to seek a councillor to help me find the strength to handle the constant abuse and accept it, and also process it. In the early stages, when my fiancé at the time had become close with a handful of those attacking me, I got into a very dangerous place, and ever came very close to losing my battle. I survived the accident just fine, it was human nature that I nearly lost my life to. I was told over the 2 full years by many people that they wished I had died in my crash and done everyone else a favour, that I was not cared about by anyone for anything more than my body, that I didn’t deserve any of the early support I had received, and ever that someone hopped I would have another crash and finish the job properly. Some of you will say it’s easy to just ignore all of that and brush it off. But after the 12th person saying the same things to you, when you don’t even know them and are beginning to suffer a mental illness, all of a sudden you lose that ability to be able to make good judgements or decisions, all of a sudden you believe every word that is being spoken.

I asked for help, and the day I did I lost the man that I loved as a result. But asking for help was the best thing I have ever done in my entire life, because I am here today because of it. Not many friends stuck by me when I asked for me, and not once did I get a hug from someone telling me they cared for the 18 months I went through it, except my family when I went to visit.

After with-drawing from the whole biking world I finally began to heal. I have worked very very hard at being stable in a job, handling full time work, getting my dogs through very poor health and behaviour issues from 18 months of not being able walk them at all, making new friends who have nothing to do with the local motorbike scene… Building confidence within myself again, keeping a roof over my head, and beginning to work through Permanente physical issues from my injuries. I live in chronic pain, which I know many on here are all too familiar with. You may look “normal” but what goes on inside no one knows, and is your battle alone. Up until a few months ago I would become very ill at the end of a working week from my pain levels spiking to 10/10 from holding my head upright for a full week at work. I have nerve damage in my neck, the when the muscle begin to work hard they pinch the muscles and make me sick. I throw up with movement from migraines triggered from the pressure in my neck. And my leg swells so badly that some days I cannot walk with full weight on it, also from nerve damage from the injury. I would have to spend most of my weekend in bed lying down for the muscles to settle so that I could get through a full working week again.

But a few months ago I took up a challenge to cycle 200km over 2 days to raise money for Cancer Research in honour of my dad. Slowly the pain is becoming more settled with less spiking and I am learning how to handle it well. It does not worry me, and if anything it make me push harder to achieve my goals. My father never got to see me well after the accident as I was still trying to work through my PTSD. I do this for him to be able to get myself back to who I used to be, and ever stronger – both physically and mentally.

I am very proud to report that after a huge amount of focus and work, self-development and isolation from the world this past year, I am doing really well and now happier than I have ever been in my entire life. I have the spark back inside me and I giggle and smile daily, often for no reason. I am building new friendships that feel very real and I get a few people telling me that I genuinely look happy which is a really nice thing to hear. Because I know I am there, and I know what I have come from.

What do I hope to gain from writing all of these truths? Nothing in particular. But something I do miss greatly is being able to just be my happy self around my own city, around bikers, around those who have known me through all of the events of recovery. If you see me out on my motorbike filling up at a gas station, I ask if you can please say hello again like you once did before instead of keeping me in such isolation from the world I loved so much. I am harmless, I am now just a simple girl, who loves life, and has rebuilt who I am completely. I will continue to ride when I can (once my cycling challenge has finished and I cross that finish line in November). If you are someone that is suffering depression, PTSD or cyber bullying – I beg you to ask for help. I promise you, as hard as it may be, you will not regret it. It is a hard and isolating road at times, but it is all very much worth it in every way.

And for those of you who stayed in contact through here, from afar, even when I went offline for almost 2 years, thank you. You have no idea how much that has meant to me. I warmed my heart to read some of these earlier messages because my downhill spiral begun. Yes the accident has changed me, but I refuse to let it define me.

Much love and appreciation for listening, Pie x

[Bikemad]

good luck and good health to you Katie..........Kia Kaha

[awa355]

What a wonderful message. Your strength and determination put many of us to shame. I have never met you but will make the effort to be at that finish line in November.
Your father would be so proud of you.

[GSW]

good luck and good health to you Katie..........Kia Kaha

What he said!. :yes:

[Scouse]

Hi Katie I never have met you but I Well remember when your accident happened.
Can I just say that I am disgusted to hear that you were picked and cyber bullied after all you went through. It is a mesure of the person that you are to come out of the other side with the strength and positive attitude that todays post shows. stay strong

[Hitcher]

Indeed. There are some brutal arseholes in this world. Some have small minds and even smaller penises. Sometimes it takes trauma to expose them, if they haven't already identified themselves. I may be an atheist, but I believe in karma.

[merv]

I've met you just the once at Sandbar when Scumdog last hit town and I am gobsmacked that you have suffered so much because of other people. That night we did just join together to have a few laughs celebrating the visit of our brother from the Riviera of the South and I couldn't imagine what you were going through as I didn't imagine things were so bad and we didn't really talk about it that time. I'm glad to hear you are getting through it and I can assure you not everyone on this planet, bikers or otherwise, are all dickheads.

You were smiling in my photo that night http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/showthread.php/150503-Scumdog-in-Welly-drinks-on-Wed-13-June?p=1130340504#post1130340504

Best wishes for the future, and stay strong :niceone:.

[cheshirecat]

"Attack you they will, overcome you they can't," As per Michelangelo's Jeremiah on the Sistine Chapel - a pretty tortuous number for all concerned.

[Mom]

Hey Missy KP.

Haters will always be haters.

Stick with people that enrich your life and cut anyone else out. Be RUTHLESS!

Power to you!

[caseye]

A whole bunch of us bikers many of whom lived up here in Dorkland got together and did a small thing for a fellow biker once.
Turned out a bunch of Dickhead bikers thought it wasn't cool.
I didn't give a shit about them and what they thought then and I STILL DON't.
I don't know anyone who wouldn't stop and say hi to katiepie.
I'm proud of her and what she has achieved these last few years and of how she has handled the BS from a few small minded, mean spirited people who think they know better.
Much luv katiepie, those "small steps" have turned into big strides and all I see now is a friend who can and does hold her head up high despite the pain and in spite of the arsewipes who would have you beaten.
You will complete this challenge and you will go looking for another, whatever you do my money's on you now and always.
Our home is and always will be your home, caseye and ratbag.

[Katiepie]

A whole bunch of us bikers many of whom lived up here in Dorkland got together and did a small thing for a fellow biker once.

Case...this is one of the reasons I wanted to post back in here. So I could update all of those who so generously did help and support me from doing exactly what you did.

I said this last year on here, but without the generosity of the Kiwibikers that all did help me, I would not have ever been able to have gotten my R6 back on the road, let alone buy another bike. You are all the reason I can still keep dabbling in the past passion the still sets me free. I want you all to know this has never been, and never will be forgotten. And to you personally Caseye, thank you for your constant support from up there. I know the riff raff will always be there, but they no longer effect me like they once did. But the Wellington scene is a very different place these days and perhaps I dream of riding in a "less complicated" place one day, perhaps with my loyal Auckland buddies.

Cheers folks - posted my post in a rush leaving work (spelling errors and typos 'n all as usual), but feel more human about getting what I wanted to get down, even if it is only to help me be able to finally push through the last of my recovery (mentally) and begin to feel like the biker that I once was. Wellington no longer feels like home after all of this, and me and my dogs may just look elsewhere in the next couple of years, we will see.

[R650R]

Only read as far back as your big post on page before. I hope you made a list of the haters as most of us here would have nothing to do with them... there's some messed up weirdos out there, don't let them inside your head.
If your ever up on a longer ride you'd be 100% welcome to drop into the HB Classic MC club, very friendly atmosphere, mix of bikes from old to new and same with riders ages and experiences.

[scumdog]

I've met you just the once at Sandbar when Scumdog last hit town and I am gobsmacked that you have suffered so much because of other people. That night we did just join together to have a few laughs celebrating the visit of our brother from the Riviera of the South and I couldn't imagine what you were going through as I didn't imagine things were so bad and we didn't really talk about it that time. I'm glad to hear you are getting through it and I can assure you not everyone on this planet, bikers or otherwise, are all dickheads.

You were smiling in my photo that night http://www.kiwibiker.co.nz/forums/showthread.php/150503-Scumdog-in-Welly-drinks-on-Wed-13-June?p=1130340504#post1130340504

Best wishes for the future, and stay strong :niceone:.

A good night was had by all then Merv - and the best part was I got to meet you, Kate-Pie 'in the flesh'!:woohoo:

[nzspokes]

But a few months ago I took up a challenge to cycle 200km over 2 days to raise money for Cancer Research in honour of my dad.

All the best with your ride, Im following your page on the ride with interest.

[Katiepie]

All the best with your ride, Im following your page on the ride with interest.

Thank you. I have stopped updating my thread on the Ride on here - if you would like to follow my progress I have finally created a page on facebook (may be the one you are referring to).

This can be found here (https://www.facebook.com/katiepieconquercancer)

[Katiepie]

A good night was had by all then Merv - and the best part was I got to meet you, Kate-Pie 'in the flesh'!:woohoo:

Yes a night that warmed my heart greatly to be able to put a couple of faces to names who have been support to me, and some good laughs. Thank you both you for your kindness that night. I must catch up with Sels again very soon. A friend who understands me very very well.

[Reckless]

HA Sunshine this Ole thread has woken up again LOL

I organised what we did with Nooooo regrets! Bugger the knockers it was only a few bucks each :yes:
Surprised to hear your still getting shit about it especially at your Dads Funeral that's not on :mad:
Just remember that's more about them than you, but from your post you've learned not to take on board other peoples shit!!
I still feel good about what we Kiwibikers did and so should everyone who put their hand in their pocket and sent kind wishes to a fellow fallen biker, ups to you all!!
That is all in the past now as far as most of us are concerned I'd guess :scooter:



BTW I should txt you but you at the Kiwi this year? I'm leading a crew down from up here this year :)
Trace and I will be at the Kiwi and in Welly for a week after Cemetery on Boxing Day :)

CYA at your ride :)

[Katiepie]

HA Sunshine this Ole thread has woken up again LOL

I organised what we did with Nooooo regrets! Bugger the knockers it was only a few bucks each :yes:


BTW I should txt you but you at the Kiwi this year? I'm leading a crew down from up here this year :)
Trace and I will be at the Kiwi and in Welly for a week after Cemetery on Boxing Day :)

CYA at your ride :)


Ah Reckless - as I just mentioned what you did and arranged, and the help that was given by many, IS the only reason I can still call myself a biker. Not a day passes where I do not think of that, look at my bike and know just how lucky I was / am - in so many ways.

All good these days, and working hard at having a stable and happy life. No longer receive and grief and if I do, I am now ok because I'm in a safer place and well again after my battle through mental illness. There are moments, but I keep an eye on them and will never be afraid to ask for help again. I hope that perhaps even one person may find the courage to ask for help from this should they need it - then it all serves a purpose. I just wanted to update all those who did help me along the way with what had happened over the past couple of years when I simply disappeared from the world. All part of me accepting, learning, gaining strength and finally healing. I owe it to many people to be honest about the path I have walked to this point. All pretty positive moving forwards - and reading through many of my earlier posts - pre accident, made me realise just how much passion, enjoyment and happiness I did have within me. It's very VERY nice to be feeling much of that back again and I look forward to making sure it stays with me this time.

Will I be at the Cold Kiwi? Rick, what a silly question to ask. I have just spent the past 3 months trying to get my bike legal for this very reason, and as of yesterday I finally have a current WOF and rego to keep me going for the next 3 months and the cold Kiwi is something I NEED for myself - my all time happy place. Looking forward to seeing you and Trace as always, and other friendly Kiwi Biker faces that perhaps I may have been too shy to say hello to when I got a little lost along my way. Still pretty shy, but would very much like to say hello to people who might see me there.

[roogazza]

Hey Missy KP.

Haters will always be haters.

Stick with people that enrich your life and cut anyone else out. Be RUTHLESS!

Power to you!

thats the one mom !!!!

[Erelyes]

Don't know you from a bar of soap, save for reading your tale both harrowing and inspiring.

Glad to hear you haven't lost the passion KT. Some things, no-one can take away from you.

Stay strong and gizza wave if you're ever down Sowf :niceone:

[imdying]

That's odd... normally good looking birds suffer from the other end of the spectrum, white knight syndrome :scratch:

[TheDemonLord]

I tried to read this thread, but I suspect there is something I am missing here - I gathered there was an accident (a bad one maybe) and then Trolls were being trolls?

can I have an abridged over-view?

[pritch]

That's odd... normally good looking birds suffer from the other end of the spectrum, white knight syndrome :scratch:

Funny, one of the "haters" postulated that people were only helping because it was an attractive girl. Bollocks of course. There were probably nearly as many reasons for donating as there were donors.

[Hitcher]

Trolls were being trolls? Can I have an abridged over-view?

Trolls can't help themselves at times, or so it appears.

[Crasherfromwayback]

You're going incredibly well Katie. Best advice I can give you is this. Tell the cunts out there to get fucked. Works for me.

300121

[Rhys]

You're going incredibly well Katie. Best advice I can give you is this. Tell the cunts out there to get fucked. Works for me.

300121

I couldn't put it any better my self !

[Reckless]

You're going incredibly well Katie. Best advice I can give you is this. Tell the cunts out there to get fucked. Works for me.

300121

+1 Crasher :) Nastiness/Snyd remarks/Jealousy/being a cunt is always more about them.

Rule no 1: "let other peoples shit be other peoples shit"

[Paul in NZ]

Katie – I’m sorry you have been through this but it was almost a given it would happen. If it’s of any solace your situation is not unique although it is more extreme.

There is a misconception that all ‘bikers’ share some kind of brotherhood of the road. While that’s true at a theoretical level it does not go much past that in the real world. Many people have bikes but wouldn’t dream of going to rallies or on organised rides etc because they don’t fit in and feel picked on.. Hell if we are being honest most of us on KB are here precisely because we don’t fit in anywhere else.

There is a disturbing trend for people to think that riding a bike makes them ‘special’, well hard or gives them super toughness and sadly they start to morph into super bikerman. This persona can be a grizzled 1% type, a 1000 yard stare “I just rode around the world’ guy or the knee dragging, car carving superbike man or any point between. It doesn’t – owning a motorcycle only proves that at some point you had enough cash to purchase it (or steal it). If you are a prick before you got into bikes you are just a prick with a bike afterwards - sadly a bike usually magnifies the prick part so you become a giant prick...

The reality is that there are very few 100% committed bikers and most of us struggle along finding spare money to keep our bikes functional while keeping our real lives going while not letting on that the reason we can’t go to the rally/ride is that I have to take Johnny to ballet lessons. Motorcycling just has to fit in around my real life. Its a part of that life but not the only part - balance in everything I say.

One true thing is that unhappiness is usually due to a gap between reality and expectation. Lowering your expectations is the only option here. But also be aware that the vast majority are supportive but they are not likely to say that directly as that’s just not their style. The negatives are small in number but every one of them will go to great lengths to make you very much aware of the fact. Effectively it’s a silent majority vs a vocal minority.

Sex – yes it matters… Your gender counts. For many reasons I’m not going into, Vicki has zero desire to ride her own bike and its probably best she does not. I have bought her bikes to try and she has had lessons etc but she has zero desire BUT she loves going with me for a ride. She has repeatedly been harassed by well meaning (although misguided) women demanding to know why she isn’t on her own bike instead of being at the mercy of some male… (or words to this effect)… Often from people she has never met before… Its mind numbing… For some reason women riding bikes sparks up emotion in other women more than men and its bad enough in men… Its freaky..

End of it all – Vicki and I wish you well and enjoy your being out there on the ‘net. I hope you continue but remember that there will always be small minded nasty people – just avoid them if you can and don’t get hard hearted like they are. Oh – and buy a mountain bike and come out with us some time, its way less stressful. Plus we are happy to go for a ride with anyone... well almost anyone.... ;-)

[Grashopper]

Some people really suck!

The good news is that there are a lot of good people around, you just have to find them (I nearly put the c word in there. I’m really hanging around here too much…).

That could be the girl you start riding with because she has the same bike as you, but who lives hours away, the guys that you’ve never met before who fix your bike so you don’t get stranded in the middle of nowhere, or a friend in a workshop just down the road.

Is there a biker brotherhood? I don’t know, but it is a hobby that connects and I find it sad that can’t you really do that anymore in Welly.

Come to Taupo. We have great roads here and there is less wind and less cars. Although, sometimes I think I am the entire riding scene here. ;)

(I know, I’ve been slacking off a bit, but I’m still following your ride. If I can I will be at the finishing line, cheering for you!)

[F5 Dave]

Wow that blows me away that people can be like that. I won’t do a Cunliffe & apologise for being a wellington biker, but obviously there are some groups & then there are others. I only tend to go riding with one or two mates, or alone which I find suits me best most of the time.

Your story when I became aware of it in the paper & then here on KB, I have only followed sparingly but I was encouraged & touched by your progress & spirit, so thank you for that.

My wife has recently taken on someone else’s idea & found it therapeutic. - An Arsehole book.

You have to do a bit to get in there, but once your name is entered, that’s it, she doesn’t have to think about them & why they are being dicks. They’re just an arsehole. Avoid them, ignore them & get on with enjoying those that make you happy.

I’ve only met you a few times, and of those had to ask people if that was the R6 chick (sorry if I starred at your forehead) because you looked like her but without the scars when I first met you.

I’ll certainly say hi if I see you at Boxing day or wherever (or to some other random person, I’m a bit crap at faces).

Ride safe, keep well.

And screw the arseholes (figuratively rather than literally).

[Katiepie]

I thank you for your feedback and comments. Some of you who I have had much respect for since I first started riding 5 years ago, and who I keep in contact with from time in time. Thank you.

What I didn't make very clear in my haste to get a few things written down, is that I am now doing very well. It has been about a year now where I have been in a safe place again, stronger in the mind, harder in the heart, focussed, driven and possibly more stubborn than I have ever been before. It is now that I am well again, there everything effects me differently because I am in control of myself and how I react to anything that might pop up. At the time, I lost all of that ability to "just ignore others". I did not have that filter, as many of us know in here the black cloud takes a lot of that ability and control away from you and you have to work hard to get it back. I work hard, very hard I have that control back. Yes, a little lonely at times, but that is a common human trait and I actively work on new friendships and meeting people through some charity work I do from time to time and there sure are some wonderful people in this world. Many of them here reading this post too. This I know, and have never doubted.

But I needed to put a few truths out there and fill on the gaps of why I perhaps became as unwell as I did, recovered as slowly as I did, said things I shouldn't have said along the way. I did this for me, because I have been feeling unseasy about not saying something and doing what too many people do - NOT talk about bullying, not talk about depression, not talk about asking for help. For saying what I have said I feel more settled about a few things, and have some very exciting thing ahead in my new life and world. I am genuinely happier than I have ever been in my entire life, and I honestly feel I needed to go through these past couple of years to get there. I can't quite tell you how rewarding it is to feel as I do inside me now, I hold no grudges, I have no hate, still a little confusion along the way but I am doing well to process that. I have also learnt from the many mistakes I made along the way and believe I am a better person for learning from these things. I am far from a saint, and needed to do a hell of a lot of growing up - some of that process started on here, through words spoken, from my poor reactions... I have formed distant friendships with some I never would have wanted to or expect to, I am learning respect for both others, and myself.

It will take me a while to feel more confident riding my motorbike around people who hurt me once before, but I will get there and it's all a part of healing and learning, my problem, no one elses.

For now, I am right where I want to be - with a stable job, better health, my amazing dogs, a gorgeous little country house to live in that makes me very happy, new desires, new dreams ahead, self confidence again, some very good people in my world, a family I love more than anything... and, I still have my motorbike. I know what a lucky and rich girl I really am.

[Paul in NZ]

End of the day Katie it’s YOU that you need to invest in - you don't need our approval to be happy... I'd go for a ride with you any day but I'm not asking you to like me or approve of the rest of my life because let’s face it our worlds outside motorcycles just plain don't intersect. You may (for instance) detest my taste in bed linen or doilies. Crudely put, I don't need to like you and you don't need to like me but that does not mean we can't enjoy each other’s company while we are riding bikes because we both like that....

You have suffered a major injury and it really messes you up. Others here can tell you similar stories - also there are those here with chronic illness that while it’s seemingly a physical thing, it erodes your core as well because every minute of every day a significant portion of you is actually needed to be away someplace else just dealing with pain or keeping things going. Sometimes there is not enough left to work on getting on with others or maintaining your own happiness. I try to avoid going riding with people I don't know because explaining for the umpteenth time that yes I'm not making it up - I'm a diagnosed coeliac with type 1 diabetes (no not because I ate too much sugar) and cystitis so yeah I really DO need to stop for lunch and yeah I can’t just make do with a pie from the servo. So I make sure I look after my needs so that I can also be acceptable to others.

Personally theres a lot of stuff here I look at and somehow - trite as it is - it cheers me up...

http://www.marcandangel.com/2014/06/29/16-things-you-shouldnt-have-to-justify-to-anyone-else/

[MIXONE]

There is a Whitby Riders group set up on fb Katie and they are a small bunch of guys and girls who share the love of riding bikes.Everything from Kawasaki 250 to Goldwing and no prejudices.Check them out if you want to meet some like minded,nice people.

[Ocean1]

Can I just put this here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_No_Asshole_Rule
And this: http://www.amazon.com/The-Asshole-Rule-Civilized-Workplace/dp/0446698202

Which I found compelling enough to attempt to incorporate into areas of my personal space outside of work. Not difficult in my case because my work is my work, if you know what I mean, so I have somewhat more control in that regard than most. However, I've found it refreshingly applicable in implementing arsehole free zones across most areas of my life.

So much so that I can heartily recommend the general practice of pointing out arseholes impinging on any area of one's personal life at every opportunity, and where possible of banishing them from your life completely. I can't claim to have been completely successful, but I have been surprised and pleased at how much better life is simply from having made the conscious attempt. None of them have anything to contribute that compensates even slightly for the extreme unpleasantness their continued close proximity entails.

If you should require the slightest assistance with regards to the implementation of the above please don't hesitate to let me know. :)

[nerrrd]

Think my first ever post was on this thread :o what a journey you've had, my motorcycling career (life even?) has been all gravy by comparison.

Never really understood the problem some people have with the idea of getting professional help for matters of the mind, but that's people for you; riding my bike is great for my mental health, not sure I'd be able to drag myself to work some days if there wasn't a ride to and from thrown in (albeit a short one).

Hope things continue to get better.

[Daffyd]

Well, I have to say that I'm absolutely gobsmacked by what I have just read! I couldn't believe that anyone could talk to a "friend" or relative in the way that you have been spoken to.

I am so glad that you have got through it ok, and wish you all the best for your ride in November and for the future.

[The Baron]

Many years ago I had a sign in my office. It read.


Don't let the bastards beat you.


When things got bad I would read the sign.

[Old Steve]

Katiepie, you hang in there. I'm glad you've made the recoveries you have, both physically and emotionally. You've come from a deep dark place and it's great to hear that you're happier and more confident now.

To hell with people who fling insults. There are so many people on here who helped you, who knew what a bike means to a rider, who thought it would be a good thing for you when you could walk out and see it. And those people did that and so many other things because you are one of us, someone who'd fallen on hard times. If they helped you get up it was because they wanted to help one of us who was in a spot of trouble. And I am in awe of the courage and strength you've displayed getting back to where you are now.

I know people can be nasty. I left a riding group because of the way some women spoke to my wife because she had no inclination of ever riding a bike and because of how one sports bike rider abused me for buying a cruiser. If you're a bike rider, it is really just you and your two wheeled stead - if you're riding with a group of friends or riding on your own. I hope you find some riding friends, but remember you're riding a bike which has in it's frame all the love from those people who helped put it back together for you, who have followed your journey and who wish you all the best.

Onwards and upwards Katiepie

[Daffyd]

Many years ago I had a sign in my office. It read.


Don't let the bastards beat you.


When things got bad I would read the sign.

Or the original... "Illegitimi nil carborundum"... "Don't let the bastards wear you down!"

[Katiepie]

Katiepie, you hang in there. I'm glad you've made the recoveries you have, both physically and emotionally. You've come from a deep dark place and it's great to hear that you're happier and more confident now.

To hell with people who fling insults. There are so many people on here who helped you, who knew what a bike means to a rider, who thought it would be a good thing for you when you could walk out and see it. And those people did that and so many other things because you are one of us, someone who'd fallen on hard times. If they helped you get up it was because they wanted to help one of us who was in a spot of trouble. And I am in awe of the courage and strength you've displayed getting back to where you are now.

I know people can be nasty. I left a riding group because of the way some women spoke to my wife because she had no inclination of ever riding a bike and because of how one sports bike rider abused me for buying a cruiser. If you're a bike rider, it is really just you and your two wheeled stead - if you're riding with a group of friends or riding on your own. I hope you find some riding friends, but remember you're riding a bike which has in it's frame all the love from those people who helped put it back together for you, who have followed your journey and who wish you all the best.

Onwards and upwards Katiepie

Steve - this is something that I remember every single day, and amongst all the crap, and past illness, I would always look at my beautiful bike knowing just how it made it back to be, and breathed life again because of this kindness of some very very good human beings.

I realised this was one of the very reasons why I felt the need to post back on my old thread. I have sat quiet for so long, in my own little world, rebuilding, rethinking, redeveloping... and I actually felt it very unfair that I had not given explanation, updated or keep in contact with all of you who did this for me. As soon as I posted, I felt a hell of a lot of weight lifted off my shoulders. As I say, NOW I am doing very well, and in the best possible place where I want to be. And I say that genuinely with no bull shit because I think it's what people want to hear. I am, and it's a place I now have the ability to stay and keep my health on track and even improve.

And to know just how many people stepped in to help me with my bike have been a very strong reason I have fought so hard to keep it. Because it's not just a bike to me, it means so much more as you will understand. And I am very proud that I have been able to do so. You can imagine my excitement this week when it became road legal completely, for a full 3 months and not back dating to get 2 week lol. Over the moon.

Not here to try and make people like me, it used to matter, now it couldn't matter less. It's the treading on egg shells locally that sometimes exhausts me a little. But I do that for myself, not anyone else, to keep away from the attacks that once were. I know, just words, but often very very dangerous words to a weak soul, of which I would like to think I am not so much anymore. I look forward to getting a little more confidence back out on the roads, and around people again. I will get there, and I look forward to one day being just an invisible girl who simply rides because she loves to ride, and a few can enjoy the company with on the roads once again.

Thank you for your words Steve - you have always given me strength with your kindness and support, please know it has never been forgotten.

[FJRider]

I realised this was one of the very reasons why I felt the need to post back on my old thread. I have sat quiet for so long, in my own little world, rebuilding, rethinking, redeveloping... and I actually felt it very unfair that I had not given explanation, updated or keep in contact with all of you who did this for me. As soon as I posted, I felt a hell of a lot of weight lifted off my shoulders. As I say, NOW I am doing very well, and in the best possible place where I want to be. And I say that genuinely with no bull shit because I think it's what people want to hear. I am, and it's a place I now have the ability to stay and keep my health on track and even improve.

That is ALL we need to hear. Rebuilding your life takes time and effort.

Well done you for YOUR own efforts in achieving that.

Go Girl ...



Not here to try and make people like me, it used to matter, now it couldn't matter less. It's the treading on egg shells locally that sometimes exhausts me a little. But I do that for myself, not anyone else, to keep away from the attacks that once were. I know, just words, but often very very dangerous words to a weak soul, of which I would like to think I am not so much anymore. I look forward to getting a little more confidence back out on the roads, and around people again. I will get there, and I look forward to one day being just an invisible girl who simply rides because she loves to ride, and a few can enjoy the company with on the roads once again.

It's often the confidence that take the time and effort to regain. One day at a time .. and do what you can. When and IF you can. Be yourself ... the biker chick YOU want to be. All of us want to see (and hear) you are on the road again.

The fact you CAN and WILL ride ... (to most) is thanks for what you have achieved with the help given ... end of story.


AGAIN ... GO GIRL ..

[yevjenko]

KT, I don't know you from a bar of soap, and I missed all the 'excitement' of your accident and follow on in my self enforced absence from KB. However, as someone who also knows the black clouds, if you do feel like going out for a ride in a small group let me know. No one in the group will know you either and I can guarantee they won't have been involved in the shite that has come before. I'm not a kiwi but this phrase about sums it up for me - kia kaha

[angle]

I know people can be nasty. I left a riding group because of the way some women spoke to my wife because she had no inclination of ever riding a bike and because of how one sports bike rider abused me for buying a cruiser.
Seriously, you can't expect to go through life wrapped in cotton wool. Sports bike riders abused you? Abuse them back! Dish out some and put them back in their place, don't just walk away.

[Hawkeye]

KT Great to hear you have your baby back on the road and good to see you visiting the Whitby FB page recently. Rumour has it that your a hot chick, so that open ended offer of dinner still stands :innocent: :laugh:
Missed you at my get together recently. I knew I should have sent you a reminder:scratch: You missed a good night.
Enjoy yourself at the Cold Kiwi and give me a shout if you ever want someone to ride with. You know I will oblige.

PS. See you at the movies:niceone:

[Katiepie]

KT Great to hear you have your baby back on the road and good to see you visiting the Whitby FB page recently. Rumour has it that your a hot chick, so that open ended offer of dinner still stands :innocent: :laugh:
Missed you at my get together recently. I knew I should have sent you a reminder:scratch: You missed a good night.
Enjoy yourself at the Cold Kiwi and give me a shout if you ever want someone to ride with. You know I will oblige.

PS. See you at the movies:niceone:

Oh Hawkeye, you have no idea how disappointed I was that I missed it, and more to the point didn't even contact you to say I wouldn't be there. I got so lost in days / commitments / coming / going.... was actually hanging out at home watching a movie with a glass of wine that night when I checked back. Need to start working on retaining stuff! Sorry doll, wonderful you had a great night.

Rode to work today, and damn did it feel good! That instant feeing of freedom hits me, and I can't help but smile on my ride - it feels like a huge relief to have it road legal again, for the next 3 months at least. Buzzing about the Kiwi as always, my proper happy place for sure.

Thanks for saying yes to coming to my fundraising movie - Looking forward to getting closer to my target total :)

[Hawkeye]

Oh Hawkeye, you have no idea how disappointed I was that I missed it, and more to the point didn't even contact you to say I wouldn't be there. I got so lost in days / commitments / coming / going.... was actually hanging out at home watching a movie with a glass of wine that night when I checked back. Need to start working on retaining stuff! Sorry doll, wonderful you had a great night.

Rode to work today, and damn did it feel good! That instant feeing of freedom hits me, and I can't help but smile on my ride - it feels like a huge relief to have it road legal again, for the next 3 months at least. Buzzing about the Kiwi as always, my proper happy place for sure.

Thanks for saying yes to coming to my fundraising movie - Looking forward to getting closer to my target total :)

One of these day's I might even make the Kiwi myself. Although the old bones don't like the cold these day's.

[Str8 Jacket]

Booyah!!! ;-)

[sels1]

Yes a night that warmed my heart greatly to be able to put a couple of faces to names who have been support to me, and some good laughs. Thank you both you for your kindness that night. I must catch up with Sels again very soon. A friend who understands me very very well.

Do it!! :soon:

[scumdog]

Do it!! :soon:


What he sed!:banana:

And I'd almost do it just to see your smile again and get another hug from you!:hug:

[Crasherfromwayback]

What he sed!:banana:

And I'd almost do it just to see your smile again and get another hug from you!:hug:

Dirty old pervert.

[scumdog]

Dirty old pervert.

But an honest one!!:bleh:


Wanker!:laugh:

[cheshirecat]

What he sed!:banana:

And I'd almost do it just to see your smile again and get another hug from you!:hug:

you could perform one of these for her

http://now-here-this.timeout.com/2014/08/24/9-incredible-gifs-of-police-officers-dancing-at-notting-hill-carnival/

[scumdog]

you could perform one of these for her

http://now-here-this.timeout.com/2014/08/24/9-incredible-gifs-of-police-officers-dancing-at-notting-hill-carnival/

Nah, my tan ain't good enough!:laugh:.

[Brett]

Katiepie...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fWr6CBARMw

I would ride with you...if I still had a road bike :eek:

In life some people are just areshole, wanker, cunts. Glad you're seeing sunnier days.

[Crasherfromwayback]

Wanker!:laugh:

Lol. How'd you know which apartment window to look in!!??

[Paul in NZ]

Lol. How'd you know which apartment window to look in!!??

I think he was just thinking 'any window' Pete...

[nadroj]

He has access to the security camera's - ask him for a copy!