You aren't totally nuts. I found some more.
Poor you with your Dad being terminally ill. My father and I looked after my Mum at home until her death (MS) and it was the best thing we could have done - very healing, funnily enough. Because you feel so helpless that you can't fix the problem, but the one thing you can do is care for them at home and surround them with love. Like we all used to in the old days.
I'm not a big fan of shunting people off to hosp to die if you can possibly avoid it. Though for some people there is no choice, I understand that.
It's hard when it's all happening, but you won't regret any of this time later on. What a bugger you couldn't put your bike in the cargo hold, though.
Illuc ivi, illud feci.
Buggrim, Buggrit.
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