Firstly I want to thank FknAmerican for postg his thread - for his courage and inspiration as it helped me during my recent sojourn in hospital. Crikey how do people manage typing one handed. My left arm is pretty useless - I will try and correct my typos but will resort to txt words at times.
This is a factual account and not one of self pity.
I first noticed a weakness in my left arm, on tues I realised my toes and heel were num on my left leg. Went to doc he did various tests an at end asked whether I had had any headaches - I had had a real hua of a one 2 weeks b4 an was in bed 4 2 days and had some since but rationalised them away. Anyway had to go 2 a&e theere til 5 in the morning then transferred to neuro ward. Had a ct scan - they thort i had bleeding of the brain or a clot. nothing showed up then I had to have a lumbar puncture - i hate needles - so far they zr using me as a pin cushion, thank god for meditation and breathg exercises cos in the end it wasn't painful for me - wow that stuff works.
At 12 noon wed they kicked me out of my bed - gave it 2 sumone else and put me in a laziboy in the waiting room lol. at 5 they managd 2 get me in for an mri scan - interestg contraption. Then i was allowed to go home "on leave" sleep in my own bed but come back in the morng at 8am. too bloody early for my liking. By this stage I had my own orchestra of kangohammers going off in my head. Man these headaches are evil coedine doesn't even touch them.
I slept well. Drs did their rounds - I'm being treated in the waitg room again. In the neuro ward they keep asking your name, date of birth and what day, month and year is - well fk meif they don't know I'm in deep shit I said. Then one of them asked me who the prime minister was - wrong fkg question, i won't repeat my answer. I did manage to stay happy and cheerful and patient thru the whole time. Doc told me there are two things wrong somethg did show on the mri but we are consulting with the neuro surgeon and will get bak 2 u at 11. that came and went as did 11.30 so at 11.45 i said - find that dr otherwise i'm going home to bed - explosive headache again.
Dr came and I heard him ask for as private room. Only then did I think ooh shit something must really be wrong. So in I go and as if he's talking about the weather said a lump has shown up on your brain in the mri it is a brain tumour and it is near the ms part of your brain -= multiple sclerosis. We don't think you have ms - cos of the headaches and suddenness etc but you hqve an appintment at 1.30 with the neuro surgeon. Go for lunch and come back then. My first thorts were fk rAther hv a brain tumour they can cut it out - other with ms i wont be able to ride. I did pray then Please god don't take my bike away from me it's all I've got. Pitiful in hindsite lol.
So I'm sitting nxt to surgeon - she had her pc on and I said they're my brains ay - there's lots ay lol we had a good laugh - I could clearly see the tumour - size of a $2 coin so ya couldn't miss it.
Where to from here. Tomorrow I staart steriods for 5 days 1 gram each day so I'm going to be wired. They warned me they could make me very depressed. Anyway hopefully I will get feeling bak in my legs and arm after the steriods then in a month I have another mri to see if tumour has grown or not then go from there. I have no fear nor do I think the worst. I will keep positive and take one day at a time. Apart from the horrendous headaches and tiredness I'm ok. I intend living life as I normally do. Just a bit slower I guess lol.
Work are in a state of shock - I think it is worse for other people than for me - I know what I'm going thru and don't think the worse.
Tomorrow I shall be processing all the entries - for Round 1 at Taupo - be good to be busy. I'm tired now.
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