Suicide stories

[mstriumph]

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But here, within the walls of KB I can. .................
Suicide is not an option, but a thought and excuse for not trying, I look at each day as a plus, the grass is green and maybe tomorrow the clouds will part and I can ride my Bike.....................

yep - KiwiBiker!!

[mstriumph]

.....................she had committed suicide. She had argued with her mum. Then walked in to her mums garage and hang her self. Her boys, who were there, had walked in the next morning to find their mum dead..........................

i know it's not pc to make comment on someone else's reaction to misery - but, to me, there's NO set of circumstances that permits a parent to risk that - it's beyond wrong - it's inexcusable

[Skyryder]

is the lowest form of wit!!

I would not even rate it that high. Sarcasm's purpose is to hurt and humiliate.


Skyryder

[BiK3RChiK]

Well, I've popped over the fence a few times lately to see my old neighbour and I'm going to do it more often!

The last time I went over, as I walked through his carport we had quite a big earthquake!! I thought the whole thing was going to come down on me!!! We had a good laugh about that....

Mostly, we talk about gardening as I like gardening and so does he. Except, his garden looks way better than mine! We are going to swap some plants and stuff. Usually we end up swapping veges.

I'm not going to let him fall to loneliness!

[DougieNZ]

We have all been touched in some way by suicide.

I have my own story to tell, and I might one day.

Suffice to say that I used to think that suicide was a totally selfish act. That was until I became involved with one, and realised it was more about a dark snapshot in life where there seems to be no other way out.

Just writing to say big Ups to those that have told their stories in here. And big ups to he Kiwibiker community for discussing this subject in such a responsible way.

[Ryder]

...I have been on both sides of the fence, sometimes at the same time.
The first time I seriously weighted my options in this was about a year after I moved to Auckland. It weighed heavily in my heart mind and soul for four years. Even though there were periods of days or even weeks there was not a month it did not come in to my head. Every month it got so there was less reason to procceed.

One sentence got me through that, "this too shall pass"....

so is this passing yet? always try to keep ur chin up bub!...every now and then life brings you some good surprizes and blessings that make everything else seem a little more worth it. you know what i mean

[Ryder]

We have all been touched in some way by suicide.

I have my own story to tell, and I might one day.

Suffice to say that I used to think that suicide was a totally selfish act. That was until I became involved with one, and realised it was more about a dark snapshot in life where there seems to be no other way out.

Just writing to say big Ups to those that have told their stories in here. And big ups to he Kiwibiker community for discussing this subject in such a responsible way.

i cant honestly say i have ever been suicidal before but i have had moments where i felt very desperate and down at times. for instance when my brother died...i felt so depressed and lost. but i hung in there. for me i felt it was what i needed to do.

i have been touched by suicide in the sense that my friend and colleague committed suicide not long ago. the hardest part when in this situation is the not knowing why. it leaves you questioning yourself about what you couldve done to change the outcome/stop it from happening.

people should always try to remember that its always unexpected and usually those you never wouldve dreamed would do it. all it takes are a few nasty words or whatever. so treat people the way you would want to be treated...with kindness, respect and curteousy.

[kiwifruit]

My best friend killed himself a few years ago.

I met Antony the first day i moved to Chirstchurch, he was working at the petrol station i bowled into asking for a job. His cbr250rrrrrr was proudly parked by the door. I ended up working there, Antony and I hit it off straight away, he was like me in many ways, a very sensitive man. He was 2 days older than me.
We talked about everything, as ya do. Rode all over the show... i was a bit gutted how his lil 250 was as quick as my impulse.
Antony came to me one day (about 12-18 months after first meeting him) with "fantastic news", his girlfriend was pregnant! He was so happy about it all. He found out a few days later that she was "just testing him".... he was gutted. We spoke about it at length, as ya do.
A few days later i left Chistchurch, moved back up to the north island. My last night in town Antony came out to dinner with my family who had come down to help move my belongings. He gave me a long hug after the dinner, i remember thinking it was a bit odd.... "i will see you again bro" i said to him... We said our goodbyes.
Another few days pass and i get a call from my old boss. Antony had hung himself in the garage of his first (very nice) home he had not long worked very hard to fund and build etc.

No one saw it coming.

[firefighter]

seen a couple, not fun cutting them down...... had a mate whos chick friend the stoopid.....erm killed herself, in her parents garage, engine running with hose through window, no note, just before exams (nothing to do with them I think) her poor parents will never have closure as to why, and they found her too, and of course all her poor friends had to think about that shit during their end of year (school c) exams......glad she wasn't my friend, a real shame such a waste, good parents and everything going for her, makes me think she was trying to make a martyr of herself....

[martybabe]

I read the first post or two when this came out then went away.Too uncomfortable I guess but I've sat and read about 80% of it today,still uncomfortable but I'm glad to see it was discussed well.

I,d just like to add a little for those with the why questions and those with the selfish act opinions, a recurring and understandable theme throughout this thread.

As a returned person, Hitchers post number aint gotta clue,was the closest here for me.Reason, logic,selfishness even reality have no meaning and no bearing in the place suicidal people live, these are the queeries,arguments,opinions and rationale of what shall we say (normal) sane happy people?

I dont want to give any details,they don't really matter,I just want to say when I was in that place it was black. Your worst nightmare black, so dark words could not penetrate it, no rationale,no reallity,no peace.You can't see the people around you,you can't see blue skies,you can't feel anything but utter anguish and total solitude.There is no family,no job,no traffic noise no green fields.Nothing,tottaly nothing but absolute all consuming pain and blackness, a living Hell on earth and you are most deffinatley all alone.

You'd have to choose to be selfish or cowardly, there's no choosing here, It's a place for people that are powerless,helpless and lost.

[Conquiztador]

martybabe, please tell, how did you manage to get out of that dark place?

[Bikernereid]

As someone who has been in that dark place, taken action, failed but now loves life I would recommend the book 'Veronika decides to die' by Paulo Coelho.

[martybabe]

martybabe, please tell, how did you manage to get out of that dark place?

Good independent non judgemental people that took my hand and walked alongside me for a while and fought on my side when I could fight no more.

Talk to someone.

For the babies; I remember. x

[Usarka]

A sheer stroke of brilliance on my part perhaps or luck, but a tip: if you know someone who might be showing signs of being suicidle get them to promise to call you if it gets to that stage.

I've just spent the last 3 days helping a mate.

Emotionally draining. Need wish had .

[Timber020]

in the states a tree crew were working on the side of a road with a large chipper when some guy (who may have had some issues) ran up and dived into the chipper head first. he didnt go through to the blades but the feed wheels messed him up pretty good.