Depression...

[Hitcher]

Don't like horses - no handlebars.

And no Kill Switch.

[The Stranger:Me]

I note there has been no depression sinse June, everyone get better?

[short-circuit]

I note there has been no depression sinse June, everyone get better?

Nah just recession since then

[buellbabe]

Seriously?

Well I don't know about anyone else but my life went down the gurgler and reached crisis point in late October.

The way I saw it I had 2 choices, give up or not.

I chose to not give up and despite crap still coming my way (just life I guess) things are actually looking brighter for the first time in a while.

BTW this is my last day in this job, I have been with the company for nearly 14yrs and I am redundant. So I won't be very active on this site for a while cos I don't have a puta set up at home...

[Hitcher]

I note there has been no depression sinse June, everyone get better?

Too busy..

[vifferman]

BTW this is my last day in this job, I have been with the company for nearly 14yrs and I am redundant. So I won't be very active on this site for a while cos I don't have a puta set up at home...

Hey, that's no good! I hope you find something better soon, and that the interval betwen jobs is positive.

As for the depression thing - is it something that ever goes away?
My brain's still fukt, and I've found that after so many years on antidepressants, even a very small dose of something like St John's Wort causes wildly fluctuating bad mojo, so I guess that means there's no help to be had in the current crop of meds. I did find that alcohol mellows me out, especially when I'm feeling (I was going to say "tragic", but that's a line from the Bowie song "China Girl") anxious, but I've also found that even one beer makes me feel crap the next day, so maybe my liver's not the best either, or I'm running out of brain cells?

Almost every day is a struggle. It's a wonder I haven't yet been fired, as I'm very unproductive at work.
And home.
Little motivation.
And I really dread Christmasandmybirthday.

[Sparrowhawk]

I occasionally get the "everybody hates me, nobody loves me, I'm going down the garden to eat worms" thing going. I've been told it's 'depression', but not severe enuf to need meds.

Funny thing is, when I get like that, I jump on the bike, find some twistys, and I'm fine after that.

[Coyote]

I can not stress enough just how fucking mint Prozac is. It's like it flicks a switch in my head that makes everything ok. I've been dumped and found out I have genital warts, and I didn't kill myself over all that.

I've been off it for a week since I ran out (off to the doc for more this week) and the bad thoughts have just flooded in. It's incredible. Got my libido back now which isn't good since I'm not getting any anymore with my two problems.

I've started to triple the usual speed I go on the bike. I've never tried to top myself, I just take stupid risks and treat cars on the motorway like a slalom course.

The next dose can't come soon enough. I'm definitely addicted to it now.

[Blackshear]

As an 18 year old, I really cannot say much.
More often than not, I feel as if there's no REAL point in waking up the next day. Every day is the same, and unless I win lotto, it always will be to me.
Dropped out of school at 16, had too much of a rage/depression type mood swing going on. Worked at a supermarket moving 2-3 tons of produce to and from the store to chiller every day for 2 years. Dead end kinda job.
Those were bad days. But I got up and lived another day.

Been at my new job now for almost 11 weeks, and I've only taken to myself with a blade twice, really quite proud of myself.
Before someone raises the 'attention seeking' flag, only 2 people know. I feel it's the only way to release the anger inside, as opposed to bottling it up, flying full tit around birkdale, OD'ing on something or taking it out on other people.

I hope this is a teenager thing, cause when I think about it, I feel rather silly.

Felt kinda nice writing that.

[Bloody Mad Woman (BMW)]

Thank god we don't have a crystal ball to see into the future - otherwise I would be dead now. I can handle some pretty big shit but what I can't handle is the utter evilness of some people and unfortunately I have been on the receiving end of a few. Frankly I've had enough fn challenges - in fact I would just request a balance if at all possible - instead of all bad - have some good once in a while. Depression often sounds like self pity - I guess - I'm not into self pity and know that is not what I am feeling. Each year is getting worse in the shit stakes. There comes a time when there is not fight left - and you look in the past to see what you fought so hard for - just to struggle to exist. Wow that is so exciting Not. I don't see the point either in listing my woes - frankly I'm too tired and unwell to give a fk about anything.

[vifferman]

I hope this is a teenager thing, cause when I think about it, I feel rather silly.

Felt kinda nice writing that.

It could be "a teenager thing" - the rampant hormones you have flooding your system don't help.
It's good that getting that off your chest helped. It's a big step forward.

[Badcat]

I hope this is a teenager thing, cause when I think about it, I feel rather silly.

Felt kinda nice writing that.

yeah bud - tell someone - tell us - just make sure you get it outside you.
it's nice to see others feel like you sometimes - and cope and get better.
be kind to yourself - what you feel isn't wrong, it's what happens and letting yourself feel it and deal with it is the natural process of getting better.
lean on your friends if you need.
i've been leaning on mine the past few weeks - it's not easy to ask for help - but very worthwhile.

ken

[ynot slow]

Hey guys,sorry if this pisses you off but,talk of suicide is an easy way out.

My ma in law died yesterday after a short(diagnosed but had been undetected)battle,we were told before xmas 2-3 weeks,she hung on to let us all enjoy xmas and new year(as if),then several times we were told come home etc,we did one night(40hours no sleep with 2 days work in between,and 380km driving),finally she let go,a bloody tough,never give up attitude I admire.

[Winston001]

Hey guys,sorry if this pisses you off but,talk of suicide is an easy way out.

My ma in law died yesterday after a short(diagnosed but had been undetected)battle,we were told before xmas 2-3 weeks,she hung on to let us all enjoy xmas and new year(as if),then several times we were told come home etc,we did one night(40hours no sleep with 2 days work in between,and 380km driving),finally she let go,a bloody tough,never give up attitude I admire.

Good to share, been through that experience too.

Don't quite agree about the suicide comment but understand why you say that. The problem is that by the time a person wants to end their life, their brain is not operating the right way. They are not thinking rationally. Call it temporary insanity if that helps, labels don't matter. Getting relief from the pain inside the head, the thoughts of hopelessness, becomes a valid solution - at that time.

If a person feels like that - ask for help. See a doctor, counsellor, somebody. Its actually a recoverable condition even if it recurs from time to time. Its the chemistry in your brain out of balance - not you. Just like diabetes it is treatable.

[ManDownUnder]

More often than not, I feel as if there's no REAL point in waking up the next day. Every day is the same, and unless I win lotto, it always will be to me.

...put a little fun into each day mate... aim for something - and achieve it. Even if it's only a walk to the dairy to buy bread, or putting on a BBQ for your friends or... whatever it is YOU would like to achieve.

Make it small enough to be achievable, and really enjoy the achievement. Be proud YOU did it. To hell with what anyone else thinks... if it was a challenge for you to do it... and you did it anyway... stand tall.

Been at my new job now for almost 11 weeks, and I've only taken to myself with a blade twice, really quite proud of myself.

Before someone raises the 'attention seeking' flag, only 2 people know. I feel it's the only way to release the anger inside, as opposed to bottling it up, flying full tit around birkdale, OD'ing on something or taking it out on other people.

There's a few in here that know about that and how it really works. Bloody good onya for just putting your hand up in here man. That's no small feat...!

The chances are it will happen again. I'm saying that so if/when it does you're able to see it for what it is. It is NOT defeat, it is NOT failure. It's actually quite likely, and it's a sign you still need some help...

... so - go find some...!

I hope this is a teenager thing, cause when I think about it, I feel rather silly.

Felt kinda nice writing that.

It's not a teenage thing - it's a thing of someone wanting relief from something. It's not good, but it's not "only you". Talk to someone... that you want to talk to. Lots of people will want to help, but if if you don't care, or want to hear what they have to say then it's not helping you.

Good luck man - try to make each day better than the last... just little by little.