L-Plate Rider
wow i am stunned. i never knew people cared. if you had known alex you would have known he was the best. the best guy ever my soulmate he was always happy not fair to be taken away from me at only 21 we had the rest of our lives planned.i dont know if im making sense but i love you alex and im sorry and all of you who are helping me out it just truly saved me i had already taking a couple of pills and started the alcohol but your kindmessages saved me truly thank u so much
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Look, do you and bub a favour, and lay off the booze, you'll go down big time hun. Go drink some water.Originally Posted by alexm
You're going to have to get up to Connor. He'll need you to change his nappies, and have a feed.
It is not fair. But remember your man wouldnt want to see you go off the rails. Try and remember that. Ok?
ter·ra in·cog·ni·taAchievement is not always success while reputed failure often is. It is honest endeavor, persistent effort to do the best possible under any and all circumstances.
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fuckin grumpy leave me alone
pls pm me her bank account # also
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"Would crawl over broken glass before owning Suzuki"
The only reason I only ride in the Iron man Class is I have no friends left to enter the two man events,
my own fault really.
Coal Burning XV Rider!
Anika, caring comes in many guises, some here have suffered as you have, they say little but beleive me if you look like faltering it'll be them literally knocking on your door.
Take heart from the words and the deeds of those who have responded in any way to this thread.
know that you are not alone, let us ask to be of help and don't be afraid to say what it is you need.Then we can literally do some good for you and yours.
Every day above ground is a good day!:
Hibernating
bank account details plz Paddy
Anika I am truly sorry for your and bubs loss, Please take T.G.W up on her offer of help. Only another person who has been through what your going through can truly understand.
Definitely lay off the alcohol, though it really does not help the pain .. you have everything to live for with your wee man
Have toKarma ... Justice catches up eventually !!
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Pm details Paddy
Anika listen to the gurls,chanceyy's the bossiest mum I know and like so many people here has a heart of gold
Shed Troll
I'd like that PM too
the middle path
bank account details plz Paddy
Anika, I dont have anything clever to say, just heartfelt condolences.
Focus one your little one - you will get each other through
Experience......something you get just after you needed it
L-Plate Rider
i havent been "on teh booze" hadnt touched ir for 11 months untillast weekend alex i had do much fun, my mum offeref me wine I Said no cause it doesnt take away the hurt..only took a few pils and glass on wine caue im so stuck between wanting to be with alex again or loking after connor,but my mum is her taking care of connor, he has a whole big family who loves himand would do anything for him, whole family agreed to bury alex in auckland, where he was born, lived for 14 years, lived with me and where our son was born, where alex would have stayed with me for the rest of his life. Now his mum wana take him down to Tauranga where he spent only 8 yrs of his life and dint consider home. home to him was in whangaparaoa with me and his son, but she dont care wat alex would have wanted, alexs father and brother agree he shoud syay in auckland buthis mum wont have it. so now my babys been taken away from me evenmore. will hardly be ever able to go down there, talk to him, bring hm flowers, tell him allthe things connor is doing, this news had out me over the edge so u see i wana go 2 alex if theres nothing else left excpt my son and i cnt b a good mother anymore anywy now,better to br with my soul mate alex
Ahhh....Opps....
Anika,
I know that you are hurting right now. I am sure Alex's Mum is hurting too. Pain can make people behave in funny ways. I am sure that you can be a good mother to your son. I am sure he will love you very much. I am also sure that as he grows he will learn to love his Daddy through you. Through the stories you tell and the love you share.
I would like you to consider something though. It's called a contract. I can see that you are feeling like dying and being with Alex might be a good away out. I would ask you to make a contract with someone. (I'm not the right person, perhaps someone you know, or perhaps someone on this site might offer.) It goes like this:
You agree with, whomever it is, that if you are seriously thinking about ending your life you will talk to them first. That's it. It's really simple and really helpful.
I also wanted to leave you with the number of the Auckland Crisis Action Team. If you feel like you have no-one to call and need someone to stop you right then you can call them:
CAT TEAM: 0800 800 717
If you just need someone to listen you can also utilise Youthline:
Ph: 0800 37 66 33
TXT: 234
Email: talk@youthline.co.nz
P.
Last edited by paddy; 23rd September 2009 at 22:02. Reason: Commas, readability...
The chances of anything coming from Mars are a million to one, he said.
L-Plate Rider
its too hard i have thought and thought it makes me so happy u guys care, but no amount of counselling or thats guna change my mind.course ilove him so much but my loving family will give him more u see i dont want to go on i always hadnt sinced 14 and then i got everythng I wanted, an amazing boyfriend andbetween us had so much love, respect and funny crazy times together.i want that and im never gona get it any other way.plz dont make me feel guilty bout my connor he is beautiful he will be happy with my family they will do a better job than I do right noe i can hardly look at him, just wana b with alex.just so u know imnot an alcoholic i had half a glass its my stupid sleeing anf anxiety pills making me feel like a retard typing. thanks for all the caring truly
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Anika.
I seriously considered taking my life too. I thought, if I died, I'd be with my man. For awhile my kids couldn't even stop me from thinking this way, because they were so young and demand on me was so high. It was too hard.
But then I looked at them, and they were so cute, and so funny, and so innocent. They didn't deserve to lose their mum as well.
I can say to you, I never thought I'd smile again, and I do.
Never thought I'd laugh again, and I do!!
I'm quite funny actually
I've sent you my number. You can call me. Anytime. Day or night. I'm a stranger, but I've been where you are right now, if that helps.
ter·ra in·cog·ni·taAchievement is not always success while reputed failure often is. It is honest endeavor, persistent effort to do the best possible under any and all circumstances.
Orison Swett Marden
Scooter boy
Lots of people seem to be reaching out, take what help you can get. Don't look too far ahead, that overwhelms and brings on more grief....
Just take things, not even one day at a time, but perhaps one hour at a time. Think about what you and Conner need to just get through the next moment until you are strong enough to think beyond 'today'.
You can do it Anika.
could catch a monkey
Anika,
I know it doesn't feel like it now, but things will get better for you. Trust me on this one.
I can't donate anything, but if Miss Mully or I can help with anything (stuff delivered somewhere, etc) sing out.
Please talk to someone - qualified or not - and do it soon.
Kia Kaha.
Mully.
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Just make it through the night. Each day is it's own journey. I found when a day was tough, go to sleep, it might be better. Day by day it was. You can do it.
ter·ra in·cog·ni·taAchievement is not always success while reputed failure often is. It is honest endeavor, persistent effort to do the best possible under any and all circumstances.
Orison Swett Marden
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