
Originally Posted by
Genie
yeeeha...'tis my lucky day.
Have just put my trusty steed away in the garage....lucky!
Why you may ask...well as the post above mentions one of those corners came along for me. My brain just completely froze...way before the corner...way before i even would have started turning....i just knew i wasnt' going too!!
eeeeeek wet, grotty day....no sunshine, wet road and one of those corners and what happens....Genie's brain shuts down.
Far too much shit going through it and when I needed to use it...I stalled.
'twas a moment that went ever so slow, you know the ones.
I must start at the beginning.
Today I stepped out of my comfort zone. Decided I would join the local bike shop for their little group ride. Well fuck. I'm not the best in groups. never have been, but, i decided to bite the bullet and go make some new friends. It's not that easy you know. some just aren't open to it. Being the only chick amongst 10 fellas is intimidating on it's own, throw in some motorbikes and well, little Miss Genie was not comfortable.
After a wee gifting of spot prizes (I got a t-shirt), we started up our motorcycles. some rather nice ones too. I had me an audience, some little lads from school had shown up and wow, there was Karen and she has a motorbike, I was famous. not. off we rode with waves from the young school lads. Me, i'm trying to be last but some gentlemen decided to let me go first. Not good for me. Intimidation, plus i had the feeling they were watching my arse (as someone else I know has done this) so i was extremely self conscious. breathing....all good, not really.
the ride was familiar roads for me...the Moutere Highway then back through to Mapua, a ride i have done about 3 times a week for the last 4 months. nothing new there...but having 4 or 5 men sitting on my arse...fuck that....please overtake me. My lines were all out, i was so uncomfortble on my bike and i knew i should forget they were there and just ride my ride. I tried but obviously not hard enough.
the corner....i'm surprised i didn't get the shakes afterwards. I completely just did not turn and then there was gravel and a raging river (where did that come from). well, little Miss Genie really rode her bike!!! No freaking way was I going to scratch my bike, no way was I going to drop it, no way was I going to be hurt, I have a party tonight (new halterneck catsuit to wear), no way was I crashing. Hell, i'm a detemined wee lass when I need to be. Just the other day I was having a chat with a friend and we talked about my needing new tryes for my bike and we discussed the chances of me crashing, I answered that "no, i was not going to crash", he told me that was arrogant of me...maybe. But hell, if i can avoid it i will. I kept my bike steady, I kept both of us upright, guided gently through the wobbles, the slides, the flicking of the rear end and stopped safely. The man behind me could not believe I kept it up and he said I did good. No i didn't, i did really bad, that situation should never have happened. I need to be sharper, I need to be more aware, I need to leave the bullshit at home, my brain needs to be focused on my ride not some asshole bullshit that I can't control.
I can't wait until the next group ride....in fact i could go now if i didnt' have a party to go to....next time I won't let intimidation get to me. I need to find my comfort zone when around other riders, those lights in my mirror are ok. It was a moment and I'm thankful for my determination for I couldl be in a hospital bed right. My bike could be broken...I was going about 70k, it could have been nasty. It wasn't, I'm here, I'm fine and I'm thankful. Tomorrow I wil reflect more on this situation and on Monday I shall go ride that road again and I shall do it right.
For now I shall have a spa to warm up and then get ready to go and live.
Life is a journey of learning and I love learning.
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